The Wondering Wanderer

Noteworthy thing abt Venerable Sheng Yan

2009-02-07T00:57:00.000-08:00

He rejected a kidney transplant operation as he thought that he was too old and save the kidney for another person.

_/|\_

Just Fix My Router

2007-09-25T11:15:00.000-07:00

With a lighter, rubber band and a hairpin;)

the router looks kinda hmm... weird?

hee...

Endless Rain

2007-09-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

Online Videos by Veoh.com

Mourinho

2007-09-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

Manchester United Next Manager???

somehow

2007-09-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

it looks like it would be a different Manchester in the top 4 this season...

And It really looks like it.

I Am A Bit Sick Of

2007-09-16T08:56:00.000-07:00

How I am being make use of.

Outreaching to my pals in Singapore via msn could be abused to quite a huge extent.

I am sick of how being overly friendly and initiating chats... EVEN IN MSN could lead to people trying to pass some msg to you.

I am sick of how I try to be condolescing and humour along COULD BE USED AGAINST ME.

I am sick of all this...

Excuses, Accuses I am sick of them all.

I am sure the above sentence will land me in hot sh!t but frankly speaking, I don't really care a damn.>

Current Affairs

2007-09-08T07:07:00.000-07:00

I have just read an interesting read in the papers.

The summary case can be said as this: A Primary School Teacher, Mr Lock involved in a traffic accident in 2004 was awarded $188 for the damage to his motorbike and several years later, he has to pay 45,000 in under a month.

Initially he went to the Primary Dispute Resolution Centre (PDRC) to settle it and the District Judge Seng award him 188 and Ms Goh was told to pay costs of almost 1,200.

However, Ms Goh appealed to the High Court and her lawyers argued that PDRC was no court and the court settlement was not part of a court proceedings. Hence, the PDRC decision was overturned and Mr Lock was told to pay the appeal costs.

Apparently, there were negotiations between Mr Lock and Ms God insurance company and but years dragged and Mr Lock make no move to pay the 45,000.

So Now, Mr Lock has need to pay the 45,000 in less then a month and his wife is pregnant with their first born.

(From the straits times)
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I would just like to note something interesting in this case:

a) PDRC "is essentially a voluntary settlement process by which the parties reach a satisfactory solution with the aid of a neutral third person, the Settlement Judge. The parties begin by having a joint discussion with the Settlement Judge regarding their positions and requirements.
At various stages, the Settlement Judge may call for a caucus - a private session - where he speaks to the parties separately, in order to conduct a full and frank discussion of the issues. In this way, issues can be identified and all involved can then proceed to map out a suitable solution ."
http://app.subcourts.gov.sg/subcourts/page.aspx?pageid=4419

b) It is interesting to note that how Mr Lock lawyer Andrew Hanam did not even managed to turn against the appeal.

My Argument is this:

a) The PDRC is for people who don't want the hassle of a court and hence another alternative to reduced the number of court cases in the overloaded courts. So effectively, it is for smaller disputes and such.

Now, I would like to note that it is interesting to note that how the PDRC first award Mr Lock 188 in compensation damage first. But Ms Goh was told to pay costs of 1,200.

And Ms Goh appealed, on the ground not of misjudgement, but that the PDRC is no court and has no rights to issue a court settlement

And won, hence Mr Lock need to pay the appeal cost which was later reduced to 45,000.

At this point of time, it seems to me to be very ironic. If this is the case, then the PDRC is not serving its purpose of reducing the number of court cases in the courts.

Hence due to this issue, the subordinate courts issued a directive that, henceforth all settlements reached through the PDRC now known as the e@dr Cenre would require an endorsement by the courts to give them the weight of legal judgements.

It is interesting to not again that due to this issue, the above mentioned change occured

Frankly speaking, I think Mr Lock is too law-abiding and a bit passive at times. Now, he is taking his lawyer to court, which I think is the right move in the right direction.

And it just shows sometimes:
The Law Protects Those That Know The Law

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On another note, Congratulations Mr Durai, on your new posts :)

It is interesting to note that in singapore, no local MNCs even bothered to let Mr Durai take up a senior position. (Most probably due to bad publicity)

But Singapore has lost yet another talent again.

Let's Us Take A Look At This:

a) Despite the sacking of the CEO and the board of directors, NKF is still the single most biggest dialysis center.

b) Who transformed NKF from a minor organisation to an organisation that is almost self-supporting for years?

c) The main problem with this saga is that there is no proper auditing process for NKF.

Wondering Wanderer

Somehow...

2007-09-07T09:19:00.000-07:00

I think it is time to be see in full...

Guidance

2007-09-05T09:48:00.001-07:00

I would seek help from the buddha, the dharma and the sanga for guidance.

It would most probably

2007-09-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

What do you guys think it is like to be in my shoes?

Thaksin

2007-08-31T11:32:00.000-07:00

Nice move...

Buy Manchester City

Then Force the manager to buy a thailand player. For football mad thailand, this must have more then anything else, proof your loyalty to thailand.

It will be interesting to see how events will unfold... In the next few months

Regards,
Wondering Wanderer

Poster For my friend

2007-08-27T08:14:00.001-07:00

yap, did this for my friend club.

thanks james for the model plane;)

Something old

2007-08-17T00:12:00.000-07:00

but worthwhile;)

wish i had saw this earlier

The New Semester Is Starting Soon

2007-08-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

On Your Mark

Get Set!

Go!! :G

Harry Porter

2007-08-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

Has Anyone read Harry Porter?

I mean Like

Harry Porter and the Chinese Porcelain Doll

Harry Potter and the Chinese Empire

Harry Potter and the Showdown

Harry Potter and Leopard Walk Up to Dragon?

Harry Potter and the Young Heroes

Harry Potter and the Big Funnel

No??

Then you must be behind time man. These are the all new and awesome China Series Of Harry Porter and you must be a fool to miss it.

Obviously, they are the best of the Porter series . But unfortunately, they are not written by the original author well so porter fans, they are like well, you know fan-fictions we see over the net by would be fans writers. (Except that people gets money from it.

So If you call yourself a porter fan, now get out your pen and paper and start writing the next episode in the porter series... Like you know, Harry Porter and Mr Bush. Harry Porter: The Next President Of the USa. Harry Porter and Spiderman. Who knows? it might end up in a cinema near you. :G

Some Article

The Closing Chapter

2007-01-23T18:49:00.000-08:00

Some people are wondering what I am up to.

Frankly speaking, nothing really happens... Except that this incident of mine let me recall a lot of past memories as well. (Zelda: A Link to the Past?)

"It Ends Before It Begins."I guess that's what is happening to me.

Frankly speaking, I am like a grenade with the pin half-out. the pin is half-out. What she did was to accidentally pull the pin all the way out. As you all know, after you pull the pin all the way out, you are supposed to shout

"Grenade" and throw it far far away into the South China Sea.

Then you crouch and say, 1 one thousand, 2 one thousand, 3 one thousand... ...

ok. She did the right thing. except she forgot to shout "Grenade!"

Or else she will be blown into smitters.

But oh well, as the link that I always am, and in the grenade analogy, I am a cluster bomb grenade, with lots of bomblets... Say a Zillions?

Frankly speaking, this is a bad bad case. Failure is the only conclusion. . . I am going to SEP this sem, and there is no way any sound-minded gal would say ok to the way i am doing things. Ok, I can don't go SEP, but i was a tat too serious... But frankly speaking, that's not the real cause...

the real cause is that they thought that I am manipulating her for some other purposes... oh well... I thought I can only see this in TV Soap Opera.

So does that means I qualify for some lead cast?

Ya, perhaps, old habits really dies hard. I can't really blame anyone, no one can guess what i am doing. . . I am erractic and eccentric. No one really knows me, and no one can second guess me. No one can, and no one will be able to... And my actions really also did not, you know, do myself any justice.

Who else can I blame but myself? So I will just accept this and change for the better. That's what ife should be...
know your mistakes and turn over a new leaf.

I heard of one very good line yesterday.

"Be aware of the anger, the resentment, the sorrow................."

Once you know how much it is hurting you, you will let it go.

This is a very good line and it strikes me during yesterday meditation course. I will put the fullstop here again... (3 full stops???!!!!)

I am the wondering wanderer and one day, I will go and wonder again... this is my Destiny??!! I don't know, but this is how i define my purpose of living currently.

Currently I have quite a few projects in hand
UROP, BL Sunday School, BaW. So that should keep me quite busy for a while.

Living Is About What You Achieve.

Regards,
the wondering wanderer. My first post in which I jump all over the place again (Just like in RL)

Thanks for the brains...

2007-01-21T09:42:00.000-08:00

as you people would have know, i am going to a very tough place for SEP,

so I need more brain power than before... hee hee thanks people :D

Support ME!!!

2007-01-19T18:57:00.000-08:00

Support Wairen!

GoodBye Jay Chou

2007-01-18T08:13:00.000-08:00

Boo hoo hoo, So what do Jay Chou do now?

Thought that this is damn funny ^^ haha

I link 2 things without link together again XD

Wel Come Mr Hacker

2007-01-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

For Defacing my blog.

I felt honoured that my humble blog should interested you. Arigato.

I must also thank you for keeping all my previous records save and sound. I must say that you are an interesting fellow. Perhaps you are one of those white hats :)

But I must say, I was a bit disappointed that you did not add a few interesting links. . .

Cause I thought that what hackers love it.

Please feel free to hack into my blog again and this time round. . .

please add some interesting links.

The End Of Chelsea?

2007-01-14T02:02:00.000-08:00

Jose Leaving. . .Lampard too.

If they get Heargraves, Adjen Robben will leave

Wright Philips Shaun looks like he is on the way out.

Frankly speaking, I guess this will looks Chelsea suddenly a bit toothless in attack. they have a striker in Drogba but but shechenko still looks out of sort.

The wing play that had helped Chelsea so much in the last 2 seasons seems to be gone soon.

Oh well, Too many cooks can spoils the brew.

Vegan

2007-01-11T06:51:00.000-08:00

Image from Bizarro

Anyway, I was going to talk about something else, but I guess I would talk about being a VeGan.

Funny thing is, I guess it was just a calling. . . The true about me being a vegan is that I wanted to be a vegan. I won't say that I am calling out loud against animal killing and such.

Although being a vegan helps that. But I just want to be. I guess that's why I choose to be a vegan.

Also, I was feeling pretty bad and guilty at the point of time in my life. So I choose to be a vegan to remorse. But I guess I did not really repent.

To repent, I must change my bad habit. Through the years I have realised that knowing what you are doing is not good enough to repent.

There are 3 steps to repent

1) To know what you are doing

2) To know what you are doing is wrong and you regret it

3) To change.

There are a lot of other people who believes that 'the enemy is out there' and 'I am correct you are wrong' All these ideas are against the idea of repenting.

I really hope that I can change for the better.

Best Regards,
Wairen

Ah Ma Is Coming Home

2007-01-10T08:48:00.000-08:00

As you people most probably don't know.

My grandmother fractured her pelvis 3 months ago in a slip and fall accident. . . well sort of.

And now, she is finally able to come back home :)

Tomorrow morning she will be coming home.

Buddha Bless her.

I Am Blessed.

2007-01-08T07:46:00.000-08:00

I was just cleaning up my room tonight and I have discovered that I have enough clothes to last me through my entire life:)

Frankly speaking, I have more than 20 piece of clothes / shorts / Jeans in my cabinet.

And I have never buy more than 10 pieces of garment in my entire life.

These clothes have been pass on to me by my brother, my relatives and neightbour.

Not to mentioned the T-shirt acquired during my school days for CCA / Class and School.

And the T-shirts acquired for doing volunteers work as well.

I most probably would not have to buy any more shirt for my entire life.

Is that not a blessing that I have 1 less worry to worry?

Poll Results

2007-01-05T07:25:00.000-08:00

I was waiting to see if more people will vote but i guess not. . . But you guys can still join in the fun if you ppl wish:) Just Scroll Down and vote

Porto F C, Mr Tree, Mr Cock, Mr Big & Mr Star, and Jessica Alba are tied with 22% of the votes or 2 votes each.

Understandingly, I guess people vote for Porto F C because if sound like Pluto F C. And that it was disheartening to know that a member of the galaxy is disowned just recently last year. So I guess it gathers quite a few sympathatic votes.

But I guess I have to clarify that Porto F C have nothing to do with Pluto. No they don't kick football the size of Pluto.

The 4 Mr got 2 votes as well. I guess there were a bit of fractions as I would think that they would get 4 votes:P

Aptly, after the classical novel The 3 Musketeers, We have now, the 4 Mr. And they did not fail to disappoint as well. The ranks amount the top few in the EPL and they are favourites to win it.

Jessica Alba, my guess is that this team here is good at illusion. When this team has the ball. People don't know where is the ball. Or rather, they don't know which ball to catch.

So we have the top 3 teams of the EPL as above.

Man Chest Ear U Ignited, Barcelona and Darth Fudgester conjured 1 vote each.

I guess it is now hard to get a Man with a chest for you to lie on and an ear to listen to you. And someone, it can be burnt and be chao ta as well (ignited). So it has 1 vote.

Barcelona only managed 1 vote. Perhaps it would warrent another vote if it shift its base to England.

And lastly, Darth Fudgester has 1 vote. Maybe the force was not with him this time round. Or perhaps, the recent antics of his fellow man Darth Vadar affects people opinions on The Darths:

That's all folks, if there are more voting. I will update you guys with it

Arigato. . .

2007-01-04T08:12:00.000-08:00

Just Don't Feel Like Blogging Today. . .

But thanks people for being so supporting of my blog:)

And to mess things up a bit better. . . A Music Video?

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you

There Really Must be a God out there...

2007-01-03T01:00:00.000-08:00

As the EPL hits the magical Number 22, I was really sweating to see that ManU DRAWS!!!

This would be an ultimate chance to Chelsea to close the gap. Sweating Basically.

Unil The Top Dog Decides to Try Something Extra Ordinary.

So they got an Extra 0-0 rdinary results.

Anyway, who do you think will win the EPL?

Free online surveys

A Buddhist Story.

2007-01-02T14:41:00.000-08:00

Can you guys get the meaning to this story? :)

Suppose a man is wounded by a poison arrow, and his friends and relatives bring him to a surgeon. Suppose the man should then say, "I will not let this arrow be taken out until I know who shot me; whether he is a Ksatriya(of a warrior caste) or a Brahmana(of the priestly caste) or a Vaisya(of the trading and agricultural caste) or a Sudra(of a low caste); what his name and family maybe; whether he is tall, short, or of medium stature; whether his complaxion is black, brown, or golden; from which village, town or city he comes. I will not let this arrow be taken out until I know the kind of bow with which I was shot; the kind of bowstring used; the type of arrow; what sort of feather was used on the arrow and with what kind of material the point of the arrow was made. That man would die without knowing any of these things

- Adapted from what the Buddha taught by Walpola Rahula

Allergy Reaction

2007-01-01T02:52:00.000-08:00

No more booze for me...

I woke up today and was ok. Then my skin starts to feel itchy. I rub them a bit and hola. They turn red.

Currently, My four limbs are in red. I don't know if this is heat rash or what. But what I am guessing is that I did not drink enough water to expel the poison from my body. That's why my body are expelling it through my skin and such. They are feeling super itchy now and I need to resist the temptation to scratch them. I am drinking a lof of water now and eating more fruits. Hopefully this will help.

Dupe. . . Thou Shall Not Drink!

Boozer.

2006-12-31T11:17:00.000-08:00

I drank more booze today than I have before in my entire life.

This year New Year Celebration was a bit different. I went with my friends to Clarke Quay. Guess we enjoyed ourselves a lot:)

We went to hooters for our meal. It was one of the cheaper there. The rest of the restaurant that we look at could easily went up to more than 50 dollars person. And I guess I did a good job being the human calculator in dividing the bills for us all. The Bill come up to be 107 per person. Which was a decent amount for a 5 person at Clarke Quay.

Next we went to brewers to booze. I not very sure of the place name but I guess I must have booze more than I did in my entire life before than when I first come here. We started off with something light first. with abt 5-7 % alcohol. I drank the most over there. Roughly 2 glasses. I guess I was tiipsy without even me realising it. I started a lot of weird dance and become the entertainment unit for the gang.

All the gang (except me) their face turns red after drinking the alcohol :) haha... I guess all thought that I could hold my liqor quite well. well. . . I guess I thought so too. Even thought I was acting out of control. Doing weird dances and such.

There were champagne on the house as well. And we had a hell of the time drinking them. The alcohol content were obviously higher.

Mr Cock join us around 12:30 He has been trying to find parking for his car for close to 1 hour. Dupe. Don't drive. Anyway, he said that we were loser cause we were the gang without any gals in the midst and I guess I tend to agree with him also haha^^ But I was the entertainment unit for the whole gang woot!

We ended up with rum with coke. But the rum tasted so diluted that we had problem finishing them. I again drank the most. I drank 2 glasses of that again. So I guess I had 4 glasses altogether.

We left soon after that. The partying was wild. And I was the wildest I guess. . . Mr Big had some videos of my weird antics and maybe I should post them someday. :P haha. After that Mr Cock send me to Clementi MRT where I caught the last train home. I was still drunk and alightened at Chinese Garden instead of Lakeside MRT. Dupe. . . It was the last train leaving me with no alternatives than to walk back home.

Back home, I realised I was really tiipsy only when I was bathing. Well. . . My feet were red. Very Red. I guess people tends to turn red on their faces except for me. My feet were red. Can you imagine that? haha... I got a good laugh at that. And now I am blogging this down in my half drunk state. Oh well, Happy 2007 to all=)

The Habitual Lier

2006-12-30T21:37:00.000-08:00

Had a class outing today at Miss Rich place. Guess you people won't know her but she was my jc classmates.

The usual suspects were there and we were there playing Indian Poker. For you guys that don't know what Indian Poker is. It is actually a game when you take a card each and the person with the lowest / higher card will lose. Depending on the rule of them game.

The forfeit for the game for the most part was true or dare. I got ask a few questions that I don't wish to answer and I guess I just gave the safest answer to them. Safest answer as in the answer that would be the least controversial.

I would like to say that it would be quite impossible to get answer from me until I really want to talk abt them myself. I guess some of you would know it. Dishonesty I would say I was. But I was not a good guy?

Dupe. . . What am I doing?

An End to 2006

2006-12-28T22:38:00.000-08:00

Dear All,

Thank all for viewing my blog. I was just clicking on my blog and I realised this:

Wow, close to 4000 visitor in less than a year. I guess that hit the tops!

As this blog charges on to the next year, I guess I should just talk about it

Purpose of This Blog

Frankly speaking,I started with this blog to talk about my JC time. But I guess it was something hidden in me for a long time, suffocating me but I couldn't talk to anyone else about it.

I was glad that this is finally over. Frankly speaking, I think I need to thank them for well, treating me as just an 'acquaintance' for so long, or else I guess it would have been harder for me to put an end to this.

But the alternative ending would be if they still treat me as a friend and we talk kok and such. But that's life isn't it?

Anyway, that was just my side of the story and I guess I won't judge them more. I still bear a grudge, Especialy to Mr K. You are lucky that I never tell the whole group what happen. But I guess that that would have no point. Seriously, they are closer to you than to me anyway. I just don't wish to see them, Maybe I would just wave to them, talk a little bit. But I guess that's it.

New Friends
I have made new friends. Mr Tree, Mr Cock, Mr Big they all, the group that I was in was even tighter I guess as I feel more comfortable with them than before :P

Anyway, I am glad for their company, they are a bunch of I would say fun and unique person to be with in. I enjoyed their company and I am starting to talk more serious things with them than just talking cock:P haha. Those people that thought they know me only know the talking cock side of me hahaha.

Frankly speaking, if you just made a new friend. You people don't have anything in common, the only think I guess to break the ice is to talk cock. There are people who thought that I am only good at talking cock and they don't take me seriously. But I guess I was just trying to make everyone feel more at ease. But I guess I was wrong:P

Anyway, I am comfortable in their company although I don't know if I can say the same abt me to them. Don't worry, this is not a GAY company.

Ya, I am antigay, so sue me.

Fallen In Love

I have fallen In love in 2006. I will just say that it was a good experience. So you guys should know the ending.

Frankly speaking, matters of the heart cannot be controlled. I finally realised that. But I guess they can be diversified and lightened. So my way of handling it this time round was very bad. But it was a good experience. Now I am alone again.

However, I should stress that I am alone but not lonely.

Alone as in being 1 person, Lonely as in your heart feels empty.

Frankly speaking, I guess I prefer the freedom that comes with being alone.

And the rationality. Frankly speaking, this should be what have happen.

I can only talk to her friends and never to her. So I guess this is the way that it should ends.

Although I must say thanks to those who help me get over it.

Church Outing
I went to a church for christmas. I would like to explain my actions.

I am a stuat buddhist and will always be. Buddhism found me when I was really down and I would not change my religion. In fact, Buddhism is not a religion but rather a teaching. The teaching of the Buddha.

The Buddha is the most democratic of them all. He allows all views to be heard. He does not shut down other views but rather listen to them and argue successfully against wrong views and actions.

The Buddha is the most communist of them all. After attaining enlightenment, he spent the rest of his life propogating the teaching of the Dharmma. Even on saturday and sunday. Every single day.

I like to talk about Buddhism. But before I veered offpoint too much, I would like to say this:

I believe that there are no enemies in this world. Just people who don't understand each other. Just like you see someone else and you dislike the person. However, that very person that you dislike has his own click of friends and people who are comfortable with him. How can you explain that then?

It is just a lack of understanding that leads to conflicts.

Frankly speaking, the current state of events in the world. Especialy with Osama and Bush, I think is a mix of political and personal purposes rather than religion.

However, by flagging the religion banner, both side seeks to justify their actions for their own selfish means. In fact, I have a friend who was living in the states. He was sick of religion.

Which I guess was wrong. That's why I wish to see for myself what Christianity was like.

About Me
I am quite an unorthodox person I should rather say with my own views about things rather than following the trend. I have been, and I guess will always be. But I guess I will learn to be more subtle now.

This is what will happen. The world is changing, so I used my beliefs to guide me along. Unchanging in a changing world.

I guess I would drop my beliefs for now. Not as in really dropping, but not to hold on so tight to them anymore.

Anyway, I would like to say this. It is quite hard for me to make an decision. But once I make a decision, I rarely change them. So I am not as easy going as I might seem to be. The only thing that make me see that I am easy going are my beliefs. Thats might sound contradicting but it is not.

I just stood by my beliefs that I should be friendly to all.

A lot of people I guess, take this as a weaknesses. But as I said before, once I make a decision, I rarely change them. I give it my all. And if I fail I would say, fine, at least I give it my all. I guess that's makes me a bit unsociable as times. But I would just need to learn.

Life has been good to me. I been through a lot and have learnt a lot of things. And they have taught me a lot

A Reply

2006-12-24T22:04:00.000-08:00

I posted this on a game forum and I got a reply:

i wrote this poem a while back when i was in high school when i went to the homeless shelter to do voulenteer work..

its a true story in utah...

enjoy it...

Homeless Christmas
*based on a true story*

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the streets

Not a person was stirring, just my poor cold feet

The dumpsters were lined by the smith’s store with care

With hopes that some food would soon be thrown there

The children were tucked away in their beds

With hopes for some coats, or a hat for their heads

The wife in her kercheif and I in my cap

Suddenly awoke from the cold winter's damp

Out on the sidewalk there arose such a clatter

I peeked out of my dumpster to see what was the matter

Away to the corner i fewl like a flash

And i pulled up my cap and threw back my sash

I looked to the moon and the new fallen snow

At the luster it gave to the things down below

Then what to my red eyes should appear

But a stranger without home coming ever so near

That frail little body looked once lively and quick

I knew all at once it was my oldest son Nick

Slower than a sloth in my direction he came

Gasping his last breath and whispering my name

Dearest dad i fear that it is my time to go

With so many things that i wish you to know

I watched as dry leaves took off as if to fly

They met that poor obsticle and took to the sky

Out to the street, to meet him, i flew

I held him in my arms, till his last breathe was through

In the twinkling of an eye i knew he was gone

I swear sat there and held him till dawn

Then I drew up my head and was turning around

When further down the street arose such a familiar sound

He was dressed all in blue from his head to his toe

He was soaked and was covered from the new fallen snow

The night stick he held, he swung it behind his back

He looked like a devil just stopping in his tracks

His eyes how they wrinkled, his lips in a snarl

I knew in an instant it was was police man Jack Marl

His wicked looking mouth was drawn back like a bow

I knew he could see me dispite all the snow

The stump of a cigar there, stuck in his teeth

And the smoke, it made an evil looking wreath

I could see that broad face and that massive round belly

It shook as he laughed, 'specially when he talked about Ellie

She was small and was skinn, worse she was mishapen

I screamed when i saw him in spite of what happened

A wink from his eye and a twist from his wrist

Soon gave me the notion that he wouldn't miss

He spoke not a word and went right to his duties

He looked over Nick and pulled out the goodies

Laying them tightly wrapped in my hands

He turned to meet the steady upcoming band

I ran to my dumpster as the team gave a shout

I watches as they searched for me, like scouring for grout

Then I heard Jack exclaim as he ran out of sight

"Merry Christmas Dear Paul, and to you... a goodnight"

A Very Special Christmas

2006-12-24T08:18:00.000-08:00

Thank you Songkun for bringing me to your church.

For those that you know, I was going to spend this Christmas Eve at Ever Living Baptist Church. Frankly speaking I don't regret it.

The Church is situated at 28 kim keat road. It is situated close to a residential area. Frankly speaking, the church does not feel like any of the church that I saw in the movies. Instead, it had a simple and cosy feeling to it.

When I was there, they were having potluck. The pastor in charge is Pastor Lim. And I must say, this is a good dinner. They had pasta, curry chicken, fried bee hoon. I especially like the fountain that spew chocolate. They had things like marsh mallow and grapes for you to dip into it. The Christmas Log Tree is good as well.

I enjoyed the German Potatoes Salad too. The food there is good. Homecook, not those type of oily food you got from outside places. It was good healthy food.

At 1930 (or later) We went up the second level. There, the programme begins and we sang songs. Frankly speaking, I approach to buddhism so far has not prepared me for anything like this. I guess I almost cried when the songs begins, they were praising the Lord, Jesus and such.

One of their songs is this

Hark! the Herald Angels Sing

Hark! the herald Angels sing. "Glory to the new-born King"
Peace on earth, and mercy mild; God and sinners reconciled"
Joyful, all ye nations rise, Join the triumph of the skies
With angelic hosts proclaim, "Christ in born in Bethehem!"

Chorus:

Hark! the herald Angels sing. "Glory to the new-born King"

Christ, by highest heaven adored! Christ, the ever lasting Lord;
Late in time, behod Him come, Off spring of a virgin womb
Veiled in flesh the God-Head see, Hail th' incarnate Deity!
Pleased as man with men to dwell, Jesus our Immanuel.

Hail, the heav'n-born Prince of Peace! Hail the Son of righteousness
Light and life to all He brings, Risen with healing in His wings.
Mild He lays His glory by, Born that man no more may die.
Born to raise the sons of earth, Born to give them second birth,

Come, Desire of nations, come! Fix in us Thy humble home;
Rise, the woman's conquering seed, Bruise in us the serpent's head;
Adam's likeness new efface, Stamp Thine image in its place
Second Adam from above, Reinstate us in Thy love.

The feeling I got was a warm family feeling. It was as if a long lost son has found his father and reconciled with him. I guess it was a feeling that I seldom have or have kept suppressed. Man is an emotional creatures and to have feelings is Man. But I kept it suppressed for a long long time. My approach to Buddhism has been scholarly at times and faith based. It has given me inner-peace. But I guess Christianity gives me another feeling. I quite enjoy it, although at that time I was just suppressing myself to prevent myself to have an emotional outbreak (Crying, yes, I really feel like crying) . So I experienced Christianity. I guess I would go back to the Church to learn more about Christianity?

Hmmm... But I really need to arrange my time. Cause I am having things on sunday morning as well.

What is more that I learn more about Christmas. As Pastor Lim says, Christmas is not about Santa Claus, Not about Christmas tree. But to celebrate the Birth of Jesus Christ. As spoken by him, there were 2 sects of Christians. One believed that Jesus was born on the 25th of December and the believed that Jesus was born on the 6th of January. So in the end, the 12 days of Christmas ensured as the time difference between 25th of December and 6th of January is 12 days.

Why do we celebrate his birth? It is because he came down to die for the sins of Man so that man will have a second chance to be reunited with the Lord. According to my friend. The bible is a story about Man love Relationship with the Lord. It sound like an interesting read. Guess I will read it one day:)

Anyway, they have a gift exchange in the end. And Tianmi was very nice to pass me his ticket. I won a T-shirt for that. My friend Songkun probably won the best prize there, an alarm clock that can detects temperature, rings to the tune of a christmas carol and even have multiples LEDs in it which dance to the time. :)

Christmas is about sharing and giving. For this day, God give us his son. And his son die for our sins. So let's celebrate Christmas with a right attitude and mindfulness :)

Merry Christmas

2006-12-24T00:50:00.000-08:00

As most of you would have received something like this:

Frankly speaking, I thought that I should say something about this pic here.

The total time spending on this card is roughly 1 hour. But i guess I approximate it to be 30 minutes or so since I changed the concept midway of doing the card.

In case you people did not know, I was thinking of using cherry blossom first since they come into blooms at this period of time. At very cold weather. And they look stunning. However, drawing cherry blossom on photoshop itself took some times, and they don't look too nice.

So I redid from scratch and change it into Maple Leaves. Photoshop has the property of a list of brushes and Maple Leaves just happens to be one of the brushes. Notice this: The leaves sizes ranges from Big at bottom left to small at the Top Right. This is deliberate to give a change of an otherwise monotonous background.

On hintsight, I should have change the color as the leaves sizes changes. It would make the change more obvious.

The empty white space behind are deliberate too so as to review changes in the background.

Last but not least, The word background is also make of maple leaves with a size of 2500. And the word are make to fit into the large maple leaves.

Well, that's all I wish to talk about this card :) Merry Christmas All.

Curse Of The Golden Flower.

2006-12-21T20:54:00.000-08:00

I watch Curse Of The Golden Flower.

This film is actually a Zhang Yi Mou interpretation of the famous novel by Cao Yu : Lei Yu.

I would rate it as a rather decent show. But sometimes, I wonder if Mr Zhang has too much fantasies going on in his head. The Women in the shows show breasts. Lot's of it. It was almost as if the clothes just cover the nipples and the bottom portion of their breast. All the rests were revealed. Ok, maybe this would be good for some eye goggling, but frankly speaking, I wish he was a bit more subtle with the female costume. As seen in his interpretation / displays of the prelude to Beijing 2008 at the Athens 2004 games, the females there were also wearing mini-skirts. Sometimes, one would have to wonder if he is a serious film maker or someone who prefer to sell by exposing.

Breast Breast and More Breast

But however, I would say that this is the main flaw of an otherwise flawless film.

Anyway, in curse, their are major plots with delicious tantalising amounts of minor subplots. I would like to say that I was rather impressed by the black assassins who looks like they were from scary movies :P

Make a reappearance in curse

The Assassins however, were now equiped with spiderman powers and the ability to hang onto ceiling only to come down when the king takes off his clothes.

Not to mentioned the battle between the Silver Knights and Golden Warriors, They are a class act, even though it was relatively one sided :P And it would do good to reminds that past china have a very good cleaning system. They can clean up the blood in a matter of minutes. I can imagine a conversation like this

"Sai Kan Warriors, come, got people die liao"
SK W: ok.

Begin cleaning and return to Zzzz

"Sai Kan Warriors, Pai seh, can come another time? Got more people die. on the bridge."

Clean again and return to Zzzz

SK W: ... ok ok

"Sai Kan Warriors, can come again? Got more people die this time round. . . "

SK W: WTF OMFG, you think we so free ah? No need to sleep one is it? Want to die all die at the same time la how come gives us so much troubles?

Anyway, Stellar performances by the Cast ensures that this is a good show to catch. Not to mentioned to would most probably see more than enough gold than ever in this movie.

The story is as this:
Anyway, the imperial family are at loggerheads with each others and they plot against one another. You will realised that the one who looks the least harmful is actually the most insidous one. And the King always act like he is a fair and just man. Actually, he just talk a lot of cock.

The Imperial Family: Happy Family?

Anyway, see if you guys want to catch this movie, I would recommend it. I especially like the ending scene. . . Thought it is a good cinematic effects.

Moral Of This Movie?
Who cares, just go and enjoy.

Parthenogenesis

2006-12-20T18:59:00.000-08:00

A process where female counterparts produce off springs without male counterparts.

A nightmare scenario for all those buayas looking for a cheap night thrill?

Fortunately, it is just for Komodo dragons at the moment. Unless those people who are interested in beastility. Cough. Anyway, this is real and in Chester Zoo UK, Flora, a reptiles who has never been kept with a Male Dragon laid 11 eggs. 8 of which is due to hatch around Christmas.

Cool Isn't it?

For more information Read Here: 'Virgin births' for giant lizards

Back From Malaysia

2006-12-17T01:02:00.000-08:00

It was a nice break. After the Exams, to go to Malaysia.

As some of you know / don't know, I have relatives in Malaysia and thereby it was sort of customary for me to go to Malaysia every year in December to take a look at them.

It was the same old thing. But I brought my labtop with me these time and I watch over 60 episodes of bleach in Malaysia. Pity thing is that I don't have internet connection there.

Anyway, it was fun. And do I say my relatives have kids? lots of them. 11 of them to be exact. Age ranging is 1 year old to 16 year old haha ^^

So, it was basically fun turning back the wheel of time and be a kid again. . . Bringing the kids out to bowling. . . well, seeing kids bowl is fun. Bowling into the lon kang is even better :P (I did that a lot of time) In the 2 games that I played, my score was 20+ 30 :) Quite an excellent score I should say ^^

Anyway, I also went to genting. It did not change much since the last time I went there. The things there are still as expensive. I was staying in Hotel New World Family Room. And my the toilet is damn big. I wonder why. There is a tub there and I had hell lot of fun just filling it up with water and splashing them around. I am a big kid i guess.

I went around Genting with my cousin children. 1 is in form 5 and the other i forgot. Anyway, it was fun as the kids just like to play. I rode a ride with one of them and we went to the arcade. The Arcade there sucks. I think it is just a mini-casino. The credits get used up so fast.

The casino was so so. Frankly speaking, I went inside the casino thinking that they would have better toilets in there but in the end it was not to be. I walk around the casino and oh well. . . It was just ok la. . . It is tempting i guess to bet, but I resist the temptation and just be a onlooker. The way some people bet is just . . .

The routtlee. . . I don know the exact spelling but it is a spinning circle. They just take a stack of chips and randomly put around some number. I was like wtf. . . Well. . . I guess these guys are the casino best customers.

I did not bet. But relatives did. They won enough to cover our expenses in Genting :)

We have Roh Mee at the foot of the mountain. It was quite an experience. They serve the whole Noodles in Very Big Bowl (More like woks) and we just scope and eat. It was a kampung feeling which I quite like. Keep things simpler that way:)

In the end, the days just pass and here I am typing this blog.

I am sure that I have succeeded in boring a lot of people to death haha

This Feels Like Sh!t

2006-12-04T01:11:00.000-08:00

But There are positive to take out of.

a) I really tried my best. (I think so)

b) I am an slow as usual

c) It has finally ended. So I am glad that I make the move.

I hate see-saws.

Good Bye All.

Maybe there will be a time when i am comfortable to say what had happened.

another 6 years?

Possible Heat Transfer Question

2006-12-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

A Single Fin of 3 cm diameter and 20cm Height is erected vertically in a horizontal plane.

Given that the ambience temperature is 25 degree celsius, determine the heat lost by radiation and convection if the Fin as a radiation coefficient of 0.5 and is at a temperature of 50 degree celsius.

If a collar of 1 cm diameter and 10 cm height is not oscillating up and down the fin. Determine the net rate of heat gain.

Take friction coefficient as 1 and the mass of the collar as 0.5 kg

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Sweat :P

Oh. . . Did I just wrote "you want to play punk is it prof?" on the Exam Script?

2006-11-29T05:24:00.000-08:00

hmmm...

But really. . . I wonder what is he trying to test us. Maybe perhaps the concepts or what. . . but. . .

The is machines.

basically this is a modules which you can just do all the question but still have no idea if you are right or not. . . at least for me. I am a mortal still.

I have not achieved "godlike" status yet.

But oh well. . . Let's make a brave prediction

HR - - A+*. Basically I just crap and I tot I wrote very good crap

Materials - - B? I drop 20 marks on this. Oh well. . . I love to screw myself.

Machines - - B- / F? F is the prof is really pissed with that sentence. . .

oops. . .

That's all folks. :P

Rumsfeld Other Side

2006-11-14T07:37:00.000-08:00

Golf Invention

2006-11-08T09:23:00.000-08:00

A Tribute To Stephen Colbert

2006-11-03T09:48:00.000-08:00

For Speaking The Truth: Watch Part By Part People

This is worth a look

2006-10-29T09:30:00.000-08:00

SAF Fantasy

Iraq

2006-10-26T09:12:00.000-07:00

Catch 22 Situation that's what the state of the US is in now.

Whether it is worth the risk of more soldiers lives to continue in Iraq or is it better to pull the plug and go?

To pull the plug and go would no doubt means an acknowledgement of failure. The current situation in Iraq, most would like to see it as mirror of Vietnam.

However, this is perfectly wrong. Iraq is not Vietnam, rather, Iraq is more like Vietnam in the terms of mounting casualties and Afghanistan in the view of how instability is most likely the results if US would pull out.

Iraq is not Vietnam in that there is not a strong government that would take over the rein once US pulls out. More than likely, Iraq would disintergrate into 3 counties, the Kurds, Shunnis and Shiities, each with a different agenda to pursue. The break-up would most likely be bloody like (Yugoslavia) and that there would bound to be foreign elements as they seek Iraq to be a battleground for their different agendas.

The removal of Saddam Hussein is a Grave and Big Mistake. Not to mentioned the reasons that this mistake happens. It is not the lack of US might and power. But rather, the lack of transparency and a cow-boy like almost naive mentally in beliving the might of the US army in its ability to push through.

What can I say Bush...

Good Luck.

ntu

2006-10-20T10:57:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

Who would win the popular vote?

2006-10-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

Let's Go Gym

2006-10-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

Long Time Never Exercise Liao

The Daily Show

2006-10-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

I have just received complains about not updating my blog:P

Well, guess you guys are still interested in this lame blog of mine :) Thanks dupe:P

anyway I have been catching daily show in you tube and I will slowly uploaded some that I found interesting:P

Firstly, Scientology

My Kitty Can Play Better Than U!

2006-10-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

Ways To Skip Lecture

2006-10-07T09:52:00.000-07:00

Lesson 1:

修心

2006-10-04T09:22:00.000-07:00

修道是条很慢长的路。。。

王天君

2006-10-03T02:09:00.000-07:00

多谢你让我有被杀的感觉，

更让我知道害人的快感。。。

Mind Your Own Business

2006-09-30T09:29:00.000-07:00

One Winged Angel

2006-09-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

Genesis

2006-09-28T08:47:00.000-07:00

Peace

2006-09-25T06:03:00.000-07:00

Victim of a Vicous Smear Campaign

2006-09-24T22:02:00.000-07:00

Frankly speaking I don't really realised it until I talk to someone about it.

Thanks buddy,

I guess I make a very easy and prominent target as in
a) I am relatively well known
b) My behaviour are hard to comprehend and this makes it easy for people to come up with false theories about them.
c) I don't really know how to react to them (as in smear campaign) Or I rather say that I react improperly.

Take for eg if I walk pass someone who I have a problem with and the next moment I met another person who I don't have a problem with, I would still have not recovered yet to smilt at the next person.

Of this, I guess the second and third factor are the determining factors that's leads to them.

But frankly speaking, I am glad that I have sort of reached an answer to these. And yes, I have truely done wrong in some cases and I would seek for forgiveness. But I won't seek for forgiveness from them, because I know that I will not get it. I will seek for forgiveness from myself.

Thank you vey much.

Sayonara

2006-09-23T08:45:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the memories.

Frankly Speaking, I would have never thought it would come to this.

Sayonara, thanks for the memories. It is time for me to carry on. Sometimes, I can be a pain in the ass for those that are currently around me. Who cared for me, who are my friends.

This is unfair to them. Sayonara. It is time to carry on.

RK

2006-09-22T06:10:00.000-07:00

"Those who trust, will be betrayed."
"Those who are lazy, will be replaced."
"And those who hestitate will be killed."
-Shishio

Ripple Effects

2006-09-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

Obviously, there would be ripple effects to take care of. But I have been too successful in handling them.

Perhaps I have always been extreme. Extremely Friendly, Extremely Unfriendly...

So that's make it tough for those who wish to be... ....

I am sorry at times... I realised and it is only when i came home then i realised that.

But speaking of that... I too am sort of glad that I am tackling it head on. Cause it is dragging me a lot.

The thing is... even if I try to compromise, it would affect me as well... This is a lose lose situation for me. As they say,

"Between the devil and the deep blue sea."

Frankly speaking, I would never choose the devil if it means that i will jump into the deep blue sea.

That is me?

The End.

2006-09-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

The Story, From My Side.

It was the beginning of a new lease of life for me. My secondary school days have just ended, although not in the best possible way. But still suffice for me to enter the school of my dreams…. at that time.

Being a 16 years old at that time, I guess I was a bit filled with pride of my achievement. I guess I was arrogant and cocky at times, but other that that, I cannot really find major defects in my behavior. (I am always weird.)

But as they say pride always comes before a fall, but never would I know that this is not a fall, but a slam, an endless spiral to the deepest depth of hell.

My problems started soon after I enter jc. From my old class, only 4 of us managed to come into the jc of our choice. There was this old classmate, who appealed to get into the jc. I will just call him Z. Anyway I did not need to need to appeal. And at the point of getting my results, he got a lot of Bs, that’s why he needs to appeal. Anyway, at that point of time when we got our results, I notice that he was quite sad. And so, I just walk over and try to comfort him. But never would I realize that my good intention would be misinterpreted. Obviously in his mind he would be thinking like, “This fucker, have a better grade than me so he is coming over and shred crocodile tears?”

At that point of time, I did not really notice it. I just thought that he was sad. Anyway, in jc, I meet him 3 times, and 3 times I wave at him and 3 times he ignored me. I was a bit sad at that time and I just ignored him after that. I think to be fair to him, the third time I wave at him, he ignored, then n sign, or more appropriately, puff out air of anger. It sort of wake me up. However, it wake it up too. After that, he wish to be my friend again, but I ignored him. 3 times is more than enough.

However, my troubles did not end there. Apparently, he confined in friends of his, which happen to be friends of mine as well. I still can recall the time when I was walking past him and jk and jk turns around and stared at me with furious eyes. Not only that, he not only confined in jk as well but some other people also (who happen to know me too).

So, you know something funny is happening when previously friends of yours suddenly you know give you ‘that look’.

My problems do not end there. At about the same time, another friend of mine, I will just name him K. Apparently, I was quite cocky and arrogant at one time and simply ignored someone. Then I saw K and wave at him. K totally ignored me.

Now this K is a smart fellow, whenever he is with friends that used to be my class / club mates, he would wave at me. But whenever we pass each other solo, he would totally ignore me.

Apparently, something funny happen here too. When you see those clicks that he is close is, that used to be closed to you, suddenly give you ‘that look.’ That I don’t know you look. Or has this guy change look.

Initially, I tried to ignore all these. But apparently, these are not off one time thing. They persisted. So what am I supposed to do? Of course, the rational thing for anyone to do at that time is to ignore them back. But I appreciate the friendship that we used to have and tried you know… earn them back. Appearing sheepish at time, but obviously, they mistook it for a sense of guilt.

I must admit that looking at it now; obviously it would seem to point to my guilt. But at that point of time, I only wish to take 1 step back. “Take 1 step back to see the wider horizon,” As the Chinese saying would go.

But for every step that I back off, they took 2 steps forward. Imagine, they have their click, but I was solo. I choose not to tell anyone my problems. I thought that I would not be a rumor monger because I don’t know their side of the story, so maybe next time we can talk about this.

The next time will never come.

Obviously, I did not help myself at that time. I was angry, sad, humiliated, disappointed at that time. I thought to myself, “Just because I am friendly to all, you guys treat me like a dog?” I was seething inside. Although on my appearance, I appear a happy outlook as always.

However, if I had continued that way, I would have been fine. But I was lost at that time. I was wondering. “Why do friends don’t last forever?” “How can someone wave at you today but totally ignore you tomorrow?” “How is this possible?”

Obviously, it affected my interactions with my peers. I started to ignore some friends of mine to see what their reactions are. They totally ignored me and I started the viscous cycle again.

Cycle = Friends Ignored Me. I Tried To Remain a Happy Face. Could Not Take It. Ignore Some Friends… …

Gods knows how many times this cycle repeat in those 2 years.

At the end of my year 2, I was practically living in hell. Those hellish pits engulf me daily, tormenting my soul.

Finally I could not take it anymore. I ask myself one day, “Do I want to end it all?”

I finally thought that I would not. Since I have endured it all, why should I end it now?

I grind my teeth. One day, I have a dream. I totally had forgotten about what that dream is… But I managed to pick myself up then. Perhaps that is what they say divine intervention or what.

So for the next 3 months or so, with a help of one of my relatives (who is good at his studies) I managed to scrap pass the A levels…

I considered myself having done a good job. You must know, for most of the time, of my 2 years. I could not study at all. My routine is like this

Wake up -> Go To School -> Come home -> Sleep.

I was practically sleeping for more than 12 hours a day I guess.

After jc, I was secretly glad of ns. Cause great, I don need to meet them for 2 years. And maybe, I can use that time to sort myself out.

However, ns is not a good time to sort yourself out. Any Tom, Dick or Harry will tell you that. And secondly, I lost faith in all forms of friendship or what so ever.

Man makes use of each other… and only for that sole purpose that we exist.

So you must realize by now that I was not psychologically balanced… I still have not solved the problem. In Ns, I would think that I make more enemies than friends. But at that point of time, there was nothing I can do about it… Nothing, because I am handicapped myself…

After I ORD, I sort of like collapsed… mentally… I could not recognize people after that… There was time when people who look familiar walk past me… But I totally could not recognize them at all… It was too painful for me to remember… I remember at biz, I was eating yong tau fu, the guy serve me and I just walk off… it was only after he was gone that I remembered that he used to be a mopa also and we talk altogether before. Obviously, he would be thinking that I am a dao person.

There was another person; I think was my platoon best recruit. We used to be gum I guess, but after I ORD, he was beside me and I totally could not remember who he was…

It was also after that that I recall.

In university, I met with that click again. Obviously, we still call out to each other. I did not really realize that I was feeling angst. Lot’s of it. I appear with a friendly face that was freaking smiling at all times. Obviously, if someone keeps smiling, you know that it something is wrong. But I was trying my best to … I don’t know…

Apparently, a new guy enters their click. And I was introduced to him also.

But last week, I saw him walking along the corridor. And he gave me that look again…

What do you think I was feeling?

I was with hx and his gang when that click come by too. Qx totally ignored me. Tc wave at me then avoid any eye contact…

What do you think I was feeling?

At that point I snapped. This has to end. I totally ignored them. After they left, I can feel that ek was being displeased with my actions.

I went to the toilet.

Unfortunately for me, I have a 20 per cent mid term that day… I cannot perform at all.

Now you guys know why I keep sleeping in the library? Why do I keep playing dota?

A channel to vent my frustration…

I have never talked to anyone about it. Until last week, I could not take it and tell qz about it.

The day before, I was in front of my house alter and I asked myself do I want to give them another chance? Suddenly, the hurt comes back again.

I realized this : I could not forgive them.

I could not forgive them after all these years. In friendship, the underlying unit should be trust.

Where was the trust that I placed with them during the jc days? Why could not they trust me?

Even now I am bleeding… There are times when I breathe heavily. My mind is preoccupied with the horrors of those days.

I took tissues and keep rubbing my face. I was stressed with those days…

I realized this. I could not forgive them. Not in this lifetime.

So I choose to end it all. Something that I should have chosen years ago.

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My guess is that there will be questions here…

Firstly, I always felt that people should live for each other. That’s why I tried to be friendly to all. I always thought that people don exist as a single entity. People should live for others, or else what is the meaning of live of living for oneself?

I was proven wrong.

Secondly, why do I not tell anyone about it?

As I said, I was not a rumor monger. I thought that ok… maybe you guys have some problems with me. But I should not spread it. Just because you are my enemy does not mean that you cannot be friend with my friend.

Secondly, I never really had a chance to tell my parents about it. Every time I want to… the circumstances were not favourable.

And having hidden it for so long, the natural thing for me would be to.

Thirdly, don you deserved it, if you ignored people?

I must admit that this reveals a flaw in me.
a) I was inflexible and undiscriminating… I should not discriminate or generalized across a group.
b) Picture yourself in my shoes, lost… People who have been classmates for 2 years, club mates for four… they do this to you. What would you think of those people that knew you for lesser time?

Lessons.
1) Those that hurt you the most are those they you think are your friends.
2) If you want to hurt someone, be their friend.
3) Do not for a moment show any signs of weaknesses. If you do that, they will take it as a sign of weaknesses. And they will shit on your head.
4) Do not be friendly
5) Stop reflecting on yourself. Even if you have reflected on your actions, it would be useless if the other party never do the same. (I tried to talk to ek abt the times in jc and he totally ignored the topic.)
6) Jumping to conclusion is good. What do you expect then? If someone ignored you for a split second, you must know that it is the end of this friendship. I was trained well by them.
7) 1 versus a group is always a lose. You think I cannot fight with you people? I just don’t want to.

The list can go on…
But I realized… some thing when I was writing this.
a) I have totally given up hope on them. I don’t wish to know them anymore. I regret knowing them. That’s is why this essay is not a cursing and swearing of what they have done wrong. I have managed I hope to pragmatically pin out my faults (more than theirs) That is why I am so calm.

To all those that I have been a bastard to, if you read this, I don’t wish for you people to forgive me or what. I realized long ago that any sign of weaknesses is an invitation to more bullying. Even if an olive leaf is stretched out to me, I would snare at it instead.

At times, my eyes looks like that they want to kill… now you people know why.

I really want to kill.

Those ex jc who don even know me… I could not stand being in you people company because this would just come back to haunt me…

Lastly, however, I would like to thank my classmate. Although my whole world is upside down, my ex jc classmates were nice to me… I like to thank them for being a sanctuary to me at that time.

My temper, I would consider to be mild before jc, but now, I have one hell of a temper… the angst is still in there. Deep inside… No wonder some people now look like that they don’t know me… I don’t know myself too…

I wrote this… maybe as an explaination.

But more as a conclusion to this parcel of my live.

2 + 2 + 2 = 6 years. 6 years I have been sentenced to hell… the hell of the living… Now I just wish to come out of it. And I just realized six is the devil number… this will end… once and for all.

I will be firm this time round. They don’t exist anymore… in my life.

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I created this... post this and then deleted it.

However, due to my inexcuseable actions for the past few days, I thought that, I should post this again.

An explaination or a shield? I don't really give a damn to what you all think... but maybe again... i do.

Perhaps, like all things is life, someone don't snap because of just 1 single thing but an accumulation of things...

Perhaps I have not really told it all here... but then... let's keep with this... until I am able... to fanthom them myself too...

Gomenasai...

It's All Over

2006-09-18T10:28:00.000-07:00

To All those that managed to read my last post. I thanks all for being an audience to an old hidden secret of mine. Prior to this, I have never talk to anyone about it.

I finally realised what I want. I am not interested to know who is right or wrong. I just want to let it go. I just want to carry on. I am tired. Very Tired to be exact.

When something becomes a burden, then it is better to let it go.

Thanks all, for enabling me to carry on.

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2006-09-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

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Long Long Time Ago,

2006-09-12T08:24:00.000-07:00

I started to learn this song since army... till now, I am not proficient at it. With the increasing workload of university, I pray for the day that I won't be able to play this song at all to not to come...

As a reminder of my own limited ability, I thought I should upload this song here as a memory...

And this song is aptly named " Memories of Life"

Stephen Robert Irwin (22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006),

2006-09-05T10:08:00.000-07:00

Minute of Silence to him please.

Steve Irwin, other known as the Crocodile Hunter died on 4 September 2006. Personally, he is someone I think that would deserved respect for walking the talk.

Throughout his life, he is dedicated to the conservation of the Natural Environment and its habitats and spent his life to promote environmental awareness and global conservation.

Unfortunately, he is killed in his mission as one of Nature turn against one of their most voracious campaigner, the culprit, a stingray, stuck fatally at his heart ending his life.

I respect him, till the moment he died, he is doing what he loves to do, he is always true to himself. He has done his job till the very end and it is now up to us, the living to remember him, not by setting memorials, but to carry on his mission so that his legacy can continues.

Pray for the living, May his wife and children be well and happy. May he watches over them, and to all that he loves.

My New Laptop

2006-08-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

Finger Cross.. Hope that I make a right choice, So far , just this morning , my labtop shows me the blue screen of death. Well you know new laptop are supposed to run smoothly without any problem. Well... It does not run as smooth as I like to, the loading time takes quite a while to load. I did not time it. But it is like a Zzzz... I mean it is brand new. I was expecting something more in the range of 10 seconds than 5 minutes.

Well... That's the problem with Think Pad. They love to tell you what you want and what you need.... Hell, can't you let us decide what we want before installing a zillions unknown software that we don know what-the-hack is it for and slow down the operating speed.

Anyway, I downloaded CCleaner and run it and found 122 issues with the registry. And it is supposed to be a new laptop, what did the IBM technicians do with it? Screwing it? 122 issues, even my computer, when i did not fix issue for a few months only managed 166. Well still more, but my laptop is a day old.

Anyway, I hope that fix the problems. Finger cross... I will monitor my laptop the next few days.

Anyway, brought my new baby to the school. Well, sort of my 'pride'? and because of the convenience it brings. But with it, I would need to exercise more discipline to prevent myself from looking at it 24/7 instead of studying?

Haha.... Need to observed this little gem more.

New Labtop

2006-08-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

This blog is a bit special, cause it mark the first time I using my brand new labtop to type a blog

Hee hee... So happy now. I got a new laptop for 2313 dollars, taking a 1 thousand dollars loan, I paid well, 1313 in cash today. It was good I never met any robber

Haha...

Anyway, The labtop that I have gotten is the T60 Lenovo laptop

Specs are as follow:
Processor[2]
Up to Intel® Core™ Duo processor T2700 (2.33GHz)

Operating System[6]
Available with Genuine Windows® XP Professional

Display size
14.1"

Memory[3] (std/max)
512MB

Hard Drive[4] (std/max)
60 GB

Wireless[14]
Intel PRO/Wireless LAN or ThinkPad wireless LAN, Bluetooth

Optical[23]
CD-RW/DVD-ROM Combo or FREE upgrade to DVD recordable C

Battery[13]
6 Cell Lithium-Ion

Graphics
Intel Graphics Media Accelerator 950

Pretty Cool ha?

haha

Just Thought Of A Winner

2006-08-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

In 50 words or less, name and explain the one thing (not person) you would want with you if you were shipwrecked on a deserted island.

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I would want to be with President Bush. Well, if anyone is going to get rescued first, it would be him.

And if he does not get rescued, I don mind seeing a comedian for the rest of my life on that island.

wahaha...

But apparantly President Bush is a person not a thing... oh well...

Lamer

2006-08-25T09:22:00.000-07:00

Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?
Student: There is no future in it.

..................

Teacher: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have?
Ted: $10.
Teacher: You don't know maths.
Ted: You don't know my father!
.................

Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum?
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
Mother: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am scolding you now.

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Father: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
Father : So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8.
If she can't make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?
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A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of breaking plates, then complete silence. The daughter turned to look at her father.
Daughter: It's mummy!
Father: How do you know?
Daughter: She didn't say anything.
.........
Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No, mine is undying love
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Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born
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Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.
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Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did u copy his?
Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!
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Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That's why I say she's no good!
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Teacher: "Where were u born?"
Student: "Singapore , Sir."
Teacher: "Which part?"
Student: "All of me, Sir."
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A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between 'unlawful' and 'illegal'?" Only one hand shot up. "Ok, answer, Joan" said the teacher.
"'unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal' is a sick eagle."
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Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"
Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."
Teacher: "Use your dad's then."
Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."
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A boy came home from school with his exam results.
"What did u get?" asked his father.
"My marks are under water," said the boy.
"What do u mean 'under water'?"
"They are all below 'C' level"
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American Holiday
Osama bin Laden goes to a psychic who says "You will die on an American holiday" Needless to say bin Laden is shocked.

"Which one?" he asks.

"Doesn't matter", says the psychic. "Whatever day you die will become an American holiday."
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The Natural
A retiree was given a set of golf clubs by his co-workers.

Thinking he'd try the game, he asked the local pro for lessons, explaining that he knew nothing whatever of the game.

The pro showed him the stance and swing, then said "Just hit the ball toward the flag on the first green."

The novice teed up and smacked the ball straight down the fairway and onto the green, where it stopped inches from the hole.

"Now what?", the fellow asked the speechless pro.

"Uh... you're supposed to hit the ball into the cup" the pro finally said, after he was able to speak again.

The retiree replied, "Oh great! NOW you tell me!"
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But Officer ...........
One Sunday, sitting on the side of the highway waiting to catch speeding drivers, a State Police Officer sees a car puttering along at 22 MPH.

He thinks to himself, "This driver is just as dangerous as a speeder!" So he turns on his lights and pulls the driver over.

Approaching the car, he notices that there are five old ladies - two in the front seat and three in the back - wide eyed and white as ghosts. The driver, obviously confused, says to him, "Officer, I don't understand, I was doing exactly the speed limit! I always go exactly the speed limit. What seems to be the problem?"

"Ma'am," the officer replies, "you weren't speeding, but you should know that driving slower than the speed limit can also be a danger to other drivers."

"Slower than the speed limit? No sir, I was doing the speed limit exactly! Twenty-two miles an hour!" the old woman says a bit proudly.

The State Police officer, trying to contain a chuckle explains to her that "22" was the route number, not the speed limit.

A bit embarrassed, the woman grinned and thanked the officer for pointing out her error.

"But before I let you go, Ma'am, I have to ask . . . Is everyone in this car OK? These women seem awfully shaken and they haven't muttered a single peep this whole time," the officer asks with concern.

"Oh, they'll be all right in a minute officer. We just got off Route 119."
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Stupid Criminal
Police in Radnor, Pennsylvania, interrogated a suspect by placing a metal colander on his head and connecting it with wires to a photocopy machine. The message "He's lying" was placed in the copier, and police pressed the copy button each time they thought the suspect wasn't telling the truth. Believing the "lie detector" was working, the suspect confessed.
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Byez Singapore

2006-08-21T07:40:00.000-07:00

Just as when you think the army forget you...

They Post Me A Letter Telling Me Which Unit I Am IN!

WA LAO ? WTF? NI NAO HIA!!!!

*FEELS LIKE CRUSHING THE LETTER AND THROWING IT INTO NEVERLAND

THIS IS AN EMERGENCY! A CRISIS! EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF!!!! ABANDON SHIP!! Oops.. SHOULD BE ABANDON ISLAND.

MUST BOOK MYSELF THE NXT FLIGHT OUT OF SINGAPORE LIAO BYEZ SINGAPORE!!!

Twisted Agony

2006-08-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

Roses Are Red,
Violet Are Blue.
Knock your Head,
To give you a Clue.

Clouds Are Gray,
I am Blue.
Show me the way,
to the nearest Loo.

Pink is Pink,
Blue is Blue
These Peoms Stink,
Like a Dog's Poo.

Reality Sinks In?

2006-08-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hmm...

School is starting again?

Slowly but surely, the reality is hitting me again... Why is is starting again? Ya, I know people know that I have mostly slack for 3 months. But hack, now school is starting again...

The monotonous tone of university life is getting into me. Perhaps I am more used to the previous systems where your lesson is planned exactly from a period of time for everyday of that week. Now, the time tables seeks like a jig saw puzzle that is waiting for me to fill up the gaps.

With what? Hack, sometimes the break are just an hour or so and then there are lesson to consider and such. Why is the system planned in this way?Freedom? But what happened if you don know what to do with the time in your hand? Instead you just spent it rotting / slacking again.

I not too sure if this system is a good system at all... But is there a better alternatives?

I don know...

Cya ppl. In school/after school , in lives / after lives

Fudge, Here is one for you

2006-08-12T02:16:00.000-07:00

Hi, I realised i am not as grounded in my religion as I would like to be... As such, I was a little affected by the Isarel Lebanon conflict after following it for so mnay days...

So there will be something light today.

Anyway, I was surfing my friend blog when I came across a pictures of his and suddenly a voice rang out in my heard ,' hey, i can do something abt that.'

Software: I am using Adobe Photoshop 5.5

The origial Pic

Using Magnetic Lasso: I selected him. For those who did not know about magnetic lasso, press L in photoshop. you will select the lasson tool. Now in the tool bar, press on Lasso tool until the lasso tool shows you more option and select magnetic lasso.

For Photoshop 7.0 or higher, just go up and change the lasso to magnetic lasso

Make 3 copies... just in case i cock up something...
Ya. The second copies is to backup. You don't want to be lassoing the whole thing when something cock up.

Using levels(Ctrl+L) to make the picture 'less dark'

For those using Photoshop 7.0 or better, I would suggest to just play with auto level, contrast and curves. They are quite well developed in the later versions.

Curves(Ctrl+M) to make it absolutely lightened up. For those wondering about curves, basically, the x axis shows you the darkness of the pic and the y axis, the brightness you wish to replace it with. So in other words. The one to your right will be lighter and if you shift the curve down, the brighter part will be darker.

Eek! Ghosts?

Ya... The thing why i am going so is because of the next step.Now I reduced the opacity of the layer till I am satisfied with it.
I very much prefer this way as the color difference will stay about the same making the thing looks natural and not edited

The Final Product...

Oh well... I did not count in the reduced in resolution that would happen when i converted to jpeg format. dupe....-_-

Comparing

Just Right Click and Save if you want Fudge:)

Dupe...

2006-08-09T07:15:00.000-07:00

The Game of World Domination

2006-08-07T20:29:00.000-07:00

Well... It started out as a random blog but now, I think I am sort of 'serialising' them.

First the IDF, then Hezbollah now the Power Play... Well... I have my own serialisation too.

But mainly, the players here are:
a) The USA
b) EU
c) Shiites
d) China?
e) Russia

It is no secret that US, under the Bush administration has always taken a proactive stand in promoting democracy around the world. (Or so to further its interests)

The latest twist in the Isarel and Lebanon conflicts only signifies the on going war for being the 'big brother' in world affairs. Well, it is true that the conflicts started because of Hezbollah kiddnapping the IDF troops, but hey, the IDF are no innocent to this deed too. One can only recall that it is only in the beginning of this year where the IDF stage a dramatic prison seige to captured terrorists heads as they believed that Hamas will free them when they took over the government.

It is nevertheless, safe to say that the current Isarel government is Hwakish and more belligerent than the norm. So when the kidnapping starts, they decided that negotiation with Hezbollah is a no-go and well, started their own war.

Now, we have enough of the history, but let's go on to the focus of today, who will be the ultimate winner of this war?

I have to conclude that it would be the USA. And my passage below will explain more.

Prior to the this conflicting, the world main concern has been Iran and North Korea. Both of them loudly proclaiming their nuclear rights with N.Korea test firing a longer range ballastic missle and Iran keen to proceed on to acquire nuclear technology.

Iran has even threatened US interest in the region if the US will ever to think of a pre-emptive strike. From what I see, the Iran mode of retailiation will be via 1) influence the Hezbollah, and 2) In Iraq.

Hezbollah has been a labelled as an terrorist in the US context, but not the EU context. (pretty amazing right?) And currently, with the IDF strikes in Lebanon, Hezbollah, even if not crippled is severly tightened by this situation. The focus of Hezbollah will be Isarel and now, they will equate Isarel interests as US interests, although this will not be true. However, the US won't mind this a bit at all.

Firstly, the next few years the Hezbollah will most likely to be serverly crippled. A UN peace keeping troop is going to be stationed there together with the Lebanonese army. This implicates that Hezbollah is no longer going to have a free reign in the South of Lebanon. Secondly, Hezbollah weapon cache are being destroyed. Thirdly, with a weaken Hezbollah, the US now has less concern with Syria and Iran. These two we knows are anti-US. However, they would not want a direct confrontation with the US preferring to exercise their options through other channels. Hezbollah being one of these channel.

From now, the Iraq situation is in tatters, but we should also see that there is more and more a sign that the US are already planning an exit strategy in Iraq as they prepare to hand over the defense of Iraq to the Iraqi's government.

What this war has achieved is that effectively, Iran option to retailiates against US interest are now getting more and more limited. When the US pulls out of Iraq, the option will further more be squeezed. Now, with the possibility of retailiation against the US being at a minimum risk, what would it stops the US from firing a few missiles at the Iran Nuclear Reactors? The US have demonstrated a past passion for acting unconditionally and as seen in Saddam's Iraq, missile were fired to destroyed Iraq nuclear facilities. We might be seeing that in the future.

China currently does not seem to be in the equation. The current situation in the Middle East favors US more than China. As seen before, Isarel and China were getting real cozy before the war with Isarel even keen on selling high tech weapons to China. Secretly, the US must be pleased when Isarel bombed and killed a China UN representative in the Middle East.

To bring China into context, we would need to take a look at a look of the world, literally. World Map. In the long term, the US China strategy is to enveloped the China with countries of its allies while the China counter strategy is to counter this. this has lead to a interesting situation in the countries around China.

As we can see, Japan is the start of the envelope, then South Korea, Taiwan, Phillipines, Thailand, India and Afghanistan.

Interestingly, China is having a counter strtegy with allies in its region including N. Korea, Pakistan, Iran and the 4 countries in the North Western area of China.

People might wonder why did I not include Russia in the picture. Basically, currently Russia might seems to be an ally to China then the US, but Russia will always act/do not act to maximise its own potential interest. In short, it acts to maximise profit. Hence, I will not put it into the context here.

The Isarel-Lebanon conflicts the US. Firstly, it brings Isarel closer to the US, hence breaking up the cozy relation that Isarel had with China. Secondly, it becomes a source of external revenue for the US. Now that Isarel is using its ammunitions and weapon and such, who can it go for when it wants replacement? As seen here, the US is more than happy to supply Isarel with such ammunition as shows when it rushes a supply of missle tothe Isarel.

For now, China main objective is to capture resources for its long term economy growth. As a 'weaker' of the powers, it will seek an economic situation and seeks to avoid political ones. However, as the world resourcess are limited, this put China in a direct conflict with the US and in a smaller sense, EU. Hence, the current situation in the Middle East will benefit US more. In short, a chaotic situation will benefit US more than China

So as the dice rolls, and the games continues. We will have bombs falling and people dying. Orphans are borned. Widows, Widowers flood the streets. Civilians crisis mounts.

All this while the politicians tries to maximise their own interest, carrying out slogans to hide their true intentions.

And the game continues...

The Pot Calling The Kettle Black

2006-08-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

well..

Hezbollah is no better anyway.

Anyway, I am referencing from this article :
Israel/Lebanon: Hezbollah Must End Attacks on Civilians

Well... To cut the Long story short, Hezbollah is no better that the IDF

So far Hezbollah has launched more than 3000 rockets into "predominantly civilian areas in northern Israel."

This is the account of 1 survivor :
It destroyed our entire family. My husband is dead; his brother is dead; their sister is in a lot of pain. My disabled mother-in-law is devastated – Simcha also used to be her main caregiver. The kids are traumatized forever.

Also, 1 particular missle On July 28, a rocket landed directly on the fourth floor, where the ophthalmology department is located, leaving a gaping hole in the wall and destroying eight rooms with beds and medical equipment

Frankly speaking, I don really support either the Hezbollah or the Isarel. Well through, Lebanon has much more civilians casualties. But this is only due to the technological superiority of Isarel. If Hezbollah has the same lvl of technology as Isarel, we would most probably see a different picture...

Anyway, there is a saying in chinese which roughly translated is as follow, " Rather be a dog in peace time then a human in war time." Looking at the Middle East now and looking at my cat who is sleeping in my house... I think this is very true.

But other then praying, I think there is little we can do now. We, as in a ordinary citizens in another country while the world leaders bickers among themselves and in the process toyed with the lives of ordinary citizens as mere pawns in the game of world domination.

Some Serious Stuff

2006-08-05T04:50:00.000-07:00

Well...

I can continue my crappiness and talk about maths or I can continue to post pictures of female celebrities...

However, today I decided to do something Entirely different.

I going to talk about lebanon. Or more specifically

Israel’s Indiscriminate Attacks Against Civilians in Lebanon

A little background information here here.

This blogs copies heavily from the Human Rights Watch Group(HRW) based in America.

HRW has interviewed victims and witnesses of attacks in oneon-
one settings, conducted on-site inspections (when security allowed), and collected information from hospitals, humanitarian groups, and government agencies. HRW has also inspected the IDF(Isaeli Defense Force)’s use of weapons and discussing the conduct of forces with IDF officials.

Basically, Isareli fails to carry out "the duty to carry out attacks on only military targets" And interviews with IDF officers reviews a notion of indiscriminating between civilian and military targets. As quoted by a Isaeli officer “in the center of Beirut there is an area which only terrorists enter into."

One damning incidents which i felt the IDF really over did it is this :
Israeli warplanes and Apache helicopters launched a sustained bombardment of the southern Lebanese village of Srifa on July 19. “After the first bombing, villagers started fleeing to neighboring villages for safety,” one resident reported. “Israel saw this from their drones, and they sent Apache helicopters to circle the village to prevent us from leaving. They started shelling the area around the village from airplanes.”

Well Done, first you bomb the village. Then when the villagers are trying to leave, you round them up like lambs and start firing at them...

One of Israel main defense is that Hezbollah has been setting up sites near civilian homes and hence the high cost of civilians casualties. But it that really so?

From the HRW report, the IDF bombing of Qana is unwarrented. Survivors had angrily denied Israeli allegations that Hezbollah rockets had been fired from the area and that local residents had been used as “civilian shields” by militants. “If they [the Israelis] really saw the rocket launcher, where did it go?” Muhammed Mahmoud Shalhoub, a 61-year-old farmer who escaped the bombed building, told HRW. “We show Israel our dead, why don’t they show us the rocket launchers?” Another resident, Ghazi Aydaji, added: “If Hezbollah was firing near the house, would a family of over 50 people just sit there?”

On-site inspection by HRW also saw no evidence that there had been Hezbollah military activity around the areas targeted by the IDF during or just prior to the attack: no spent ammunition, abandoned weapons or military equipment, trenches, or dead or wounded fighters.

The use of "cluster ammunition" by the IDF are also very objectional as this weapons have a very poor history of discriminating between civilians and military targets.

Also, the IDF has also targeted medical personnel and aid convoys. “A weapon directly hit one ambulance, and a second attack struck the second ambulance a few minutes later,” the report stated. “All six of the Red Cross workers were injured during the attack, and the three patients they were treating suffered additional injuries. One of the patients, a middle-aged man, lost his leg in the ambulance strike, while his elderly mother was partially paralyzed. The third patient, a young boy, received multiple shrapnel wounds to the head.”

The Full report is availiable here.

A summarized version is availiable here.

Understanding, the IDF actions leaves much to be desired. However, at such a stage, I would most probably like to reserved my comments until a second report from the HRW is out. The report of Hezbollah rockets in Israel is out. However, I think that it is only appropriate that we pray of the sufferings in the Middle East.

Maths...

2006-08-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wonder how come all of us sux at maths?

And felt demoralised...

Fear Not... Cause for a mountain high, there is 1 higher.

For a sea deep, there is one deeper.

And you really are not as as bad as you think.

Thanks all

2006-07-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

For My Mindless Rambles and such. I realised that I have very good friends and such that bothers to read my idiotic blogs...

Today I read the newspaper and apparently there are 50,000 bloggers alone in Singapore. Comparing the quality of blogs, I guess mine would be one of the worst.

Idiotic blogs, ramblings that make nonsense sensical, bad grammer and poor vocab. All this and more would just justify this blog as the winner of the idiotic blogpage of the year alone...

I believe some of you would be tempted to say, "Come on, my grandmama can do better."

Well, a big thanks to all, for supporting my blog until i have reached T 2353 viewership, not bad considering... I would not rate this highly.

THANKS PEOPLE! APPRECIATE YOU GUYS.

Or have I given you people the reason to jump ship and visit a better blog?

Pirates Of The Carribean

2006-07-27T08:20:00.000-07:00

A man can make or break a movie.

I finished watching pirates of the carribean -- the black pearl.

And I am amazed by the different in feeling that I had when I watched the sequel...

Johnny Deepp portrayal as Jack Sparrow is uncanny and unparalleled.

His unorthodox acting as Jack Sparrow who ratters in rhymes; swing his bodies as if he is dancing.

Jack starts out as an unorthordox hero who have been betrayed by his crew and now seek revenge on his first make Captain Barbossa and to take back his ship. Together, he enlist the help of Will Turner who had a childhood sweetheart Elizabeth Swann kidnapped by the crew.

Although the plot is more linear now, however, this allows more screen time for both Captain Jack and Captain Barbossa and it is here, where we the audience will be able to see and feel more for the actors. (Rather than in the sequel) Also, the plot is much better here as as we move along, the plot unrivals itself.

For instances, Captain Jack was supposed to have escaped from an island that he was marooned on by tying sea turtles to himself and swimming away. But in the end he gotten away because a ship docked on the island.

Oops... So the Truth is out

In fact, I believe that the nicest moment of the sequel "Dead Man Chest" was when Jack Sparrow was made 'God' of a tribe. This is where we really see some funny stuff as Jack try to waggles himself out from being eaten alive by trying to extinguish fire by blowing on them (Except that the fires were a foot high) and attempting to escaped only to be caught back.

I am god... I need food

Not too mentioned the more screen time that we get to see more of the lead female actress. In fact, in the sequel, Elizabeth time on the screen is repeatedly being shared equally with Will, not that I have to complained except for the fact that they are appearing in different scene.

1 hot chick

But overall, watching curse of the Black Pearl Redemmed this movie for me. Well... Perhaps it would be worthwhile to see the third installment of the movie. End Of The World :)

Dupe, I tot I am starring in that one...

Pirates Of The Carribean-- Dead Man Chest

2006-07-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

Well... Frankly Speaking, I was not really impressed by the movie.

Read on if you dare to read and continue to watch the movie... :P

For me, this movie has a plot that is slightly thicker than water. Johnny Deep Performance as Jack Sparrow is not particularly memoriable. At times, I can feel that he is overdoing the acting... Being over 'cartoonist' and such (maybe just like me)

But not very memorable.

Also, there are no new twist to the plot. The plot basically follow a linear route of Jack Sparrow, escaping from Captain Davis. And in the midst he tries to gets back at Captain Davis by getting his heart, which is supposed to be locked away in a chest.

Nothing new crop up and I was not particularly impressed with the plot.

If you have a thin plot, it is more than likely that you should make up with superb special effects and such.

Frankly speaking, the special effects fails to have an impact on me and such. I know that the giant tenacles of the sea monster 'cracker' do look real. And that Captain Davis and his crew are very much well rendered. But in special effects, I belief that if one will to use special effects for real life thing such as ship, water splashing and such, the impact on the viewer would be much less than if it was something out of the ordinary.

Well I do admit that there are cases when the effects are good, especially the sinking of Captain Davis Ship into the sea as it transform from a sailing ship to an underwater submarine, The swinging tenacles and such, However, I believe that in this realm when good 3-d effects are the common, I don think that good is just enough. Although the water animation are excellent, however, I detect 1 major flaw. There is a lack of shadow for the 'cracker' or sea monster. This is particularly visible in the last scene when the cracker swallowed up Jack Sparrow. I mean the lightning on Jack Sparrow space appears all the same when the 'cracker' appears up.

Also, in the second sense which is supposed to be one of the best scene in the movie, where they are having a sword fight on a spinning wheel, I can't help but notice that at some point it looks to me that the back ground is spinning instead of the wheel. Although I believe that this is a usual cinematic trick. But I don know how I catch it but I just do. So it left me with a bit of a disappointment.

Also, the timing of the appearance of people seems too coincidental for my likings and Captain Davis Crew, seems a bit too small to me...

Well, maybe I am a bit too picky, but if you guys are enjoing it please enjoy the show:P
But Well, I guess they are saving the best for the last.

Lebanon & Isarel

2006-07-23T05:49:00.000-07:00

As you all most probably knew, Israel troops are now entering Lebanon borders in a bit to chase out Hezbollah elements.

Since July 12, with the kidnapping of two Israeli soldiers, the war in the middle east has escalated disproportionately.

To date, more than 372 are Dead in Lebanon, and 34 in Israel.

Everyone here knows that this is a humantiliarian crisis. The number of displaced people has grown to 600,000, and things are so bad that "Pakistan refugees are taking in Lebanon refugees"

It is destressing to know that after experiencing the genocide themselves, the Israel are not emotionally aware of the pain of suffering of wars. Much more destressing is the number of innocent civilians who will ultimately have to pay the price for this war.

Pray For Peace Ppl.

For those who wants to have a further understanding of why this is happening I would recommend the following link:
Dangerous Move and Lebanon Fate

CHRONOLOGY-Events in Middle East

Finally

2006-07-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

Well... Taken me 2 weeks + to do this and finally it is done.

Not my best work but I am quite satisfied with it. Ha Ha. I learn to do new tricks with old stuff here.

I have edited them using

a) Memories on TV (Fool proof software)
b) Adobe Premier 5.5
c) Adobe Photoshop 5

Sign... I really like Premier for the way it allows you to control your movement and such it is a highly recommended software for serious editors I guess

For Music Editing, I stress Editing I suggest SoundForge It is a good software to use to make 'markings' at beats and such

Well.. That's All Folks XD:)

cep day 3

2006-07-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well, Edited this video today hee

Anyway, Getting tired? So this is an anyhow anyhow edited one...

More on Zizou

2006-07-19T22:57:00.000-07:00

I have received a really funny email and thought that I would like to share with you ppl...

The Zidane incident.... As seen by:

The Germans

The French

The Italians

The Americans

The Press

Ha Ha HA:P

wat i did today

2006-07-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62ILxXUOZ-o

lazi to type...

2 videos

2006-07-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

well... I recommend this to me friends and they ask me to post it up! So...

well... guess the dark side is not all powerful.

And this is what I have done today:

Head Butting Culture

2006-07-14T08:10:00.000-07:00

The World Cup has just ended. And Italy was the champions and guess what the talking point of the World Cup?

Mr Zizou infamous headbutting way to end his career.

Apparently, Mr Zizou will be ending his footballing career and there has been rumours of where will he go after he retire from football but apparently he has given us more than a hint of what he will do after he retire from football.

SMK and Catcom, 2 of the world leading game manufacturing are interesting in recruiting Zizou as a new fighter in their FiFa World Fight Series.

Say the company director Mr Baldy, " Obviously we would be seriously considering to add him as a new character in our new fighting series! He should be the final boss as well. Look people will look at your hands and legs to see where you are moving but using your head to attack? Good Gracious! people will be taken by surprise!!"

Come We even have a demo for our game!!

People Of the world delights in Zizou feat of head butting

"I...t iii...sss innngeeenooouuus!", shuttered Miss Uoziz, " I... I ... I uuseeed tooo beeee uunnaableeeee tooo wiiin iiin aan aaargumeeent, nooow I neeveer loooseee oooneeee!"

"Agreed, " , exclaimed Mr Omama , " With this new way of expressing ourselves, now we can be more direct and we can get our point straight across to people. I find that people disagree with me less and that those who disagree usually keeps their mouth shut soon after I express my um ...displeasure! "

Apparently, Zizou is leading a new cultural revolution of head butting however an interview with the man himself seems that he is not at all pleased with it.

Zizou, " It should never have happened, I mean you all know how long I have been bald. With my Iron Head Skills which I have practised all these years, I don expect him to just fall down so meekly onto the ground. In fact, when I execute my head butt, I was not really head butting him but I was actually practising my header as I miss one before! also my head butt is in the direction of the ball, So theoretically he should fly off, hit the ball and fly into the net! Ball and all! It was supposed to be the most powerful and fantastic goal of the tournament! I don comprehend why he just fall down!!"

Well, Apparently Zizou still has some work to do to reach that level, but we will see more of him these days -The Wondering Wonderer Signing Off

Camp Ehi Passiko

2006-07-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

CEP just ended for me... For those who knew, this is a buddhist camp that is meant for freshman.

Basically I join it as a technical officer. That means I mean in charge of all the barang barangs that require electricity needs me. Well basically is...

a) Taking Photographs
b) Editing Videos
c) Taking care of equipment.

But I alone cannot do the job, so i need to thanks those that have helped me during the course of the camp:). Thanks All

Basically what does Ehi Passiko stands for?

Five centuries before the Common Era, tradition says that a group of villagers invited the Buddha to come into town and help sort out what had become a big problem. It seemed that this village, Kesaputta, was constantly being invaded by preachers who
would come in and tell the folk that everything they’d heard from other preachers was
wrong. “Which of these venerable priests are speaking the truth, and which ones are
lying?" they asked the Buddha. They expected him to do criticise all the others, which would prove he was just an ordinary evangelist. What he said has become a hallmark of the Buddhist knack for confounding all expectations. “Ehi-passiko,” he said, in the Indian language of the day. “See for yourself.”

The Buddha taught that capital “T” Truth can be discovered by anyone who was willing
to courageously explore the nature of reality. Don’t rely on “reports, legends, traditions, scripture…or even teachers,” he said. “Ehi-passiko. See for yourself.”

So generally, Camp Ehi Passiko is a camp that allows use to see for ourselves what buddhism is. It is basically a very simple introduction to buddhism and such.

Unfortunately nowadays, Buddhism is often associated with superstitions and the praying to numerous dieties. However, that was never the case. Buddhism is about understanding more about one, oneself, one own surrounding and how one should live with one surroundings.

In fact, The Buddha, when he is alive never enforced anything into people forcefully or what so ever. The Buddha always debates with other preachers of other sects and never go about asking people to take his word for granted.

The spirit of Ehi Passiko is basically, to listen to what The Buddha said and then to see for oneself, including with one own surrounding whether this make sense or not. Whether what The Buddha said make sense in the real world.

Well, I think I benefitted from this camp, I think I understand myself a bit more nowadays. But however, continuous practise is required for real improvement. So Let's see what I will do:) And maybe I will talk more about Buddhism next time

But for people with some interest, there is this link:

Buddhism Guide

The Owner Of This Blog Has Departed...

2006-07-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

I guess that's what people have been thinking of? how long have i not updated this site.

1 week or so? Hell if i Know

So things has gathered to be more that quiet here and that the cowebs seems to be building up slowly but surely :P

well... so I put a R.I.P pic here...

But anyway what nonsense is this ...

*Bish

Great Outing Today

2006-06-24T10:23:00.000-07:00

Had A Great Outing Today,

We went to play table tennis in NUS, and there Boliang and jiang yun taught me some new skills to do.

After that we went to China Town and eat, meal was fantastic too

Ha ha Jiang yun was there talking about the different parts of a fish head to eat ha ha...

Lol...

But then the best was the fish slice bee hoon. We sort of ordered too much food and in the end we had to return the food. Then we found a dead criket in the bee hoon soup and so Zhao Long and Bo Liang go and return the soup and get the $$$ back ha ha...

Save us the trouble for eating it.

After that, we went to some ulu ulu place sit down and just talk cock. Lol not bad la...

Ha ha

Elo

2006-06-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

Lazing around these few days as usual, I think I will have a good post coming up. So check back not so soon...

Played Basketball today and was well, not too bad ha ha... Suffered a few knocks and scratches... Not bad la...

Lolx...

Well.... These few days caught the lazi bug

Long Long Time Ago

2006-06-20T08:18:00.001-07:00

We were giving Pascal a farewell dinner for he is due to be back home.

Well, is it because that we were glad to have less pressure around us?

Or is it that we were nice people who had a little extra cash in hand?

Neither thou shall guess,

cause Pascal was a good pal and it would be the last meeting for 3 month or so.

Well, speaking of these, there are people that I have not met for years.

Like the flow of the tide, people in your life come and go, the imprint of the previous tide being washed away by the next tide.

Woe betide those who bemoans the everchanging fate of life but while we can,

let's just enjoy it:

Bodhi Big Walk

2006-06-18T03:20:00.000-07:00

As some of you probably had known, I was in charge of recruiting marshallers for this Bodhi Big Walk.

The Bodhi Big Walk is actually an annual event to raise fund for the Singapore Buddhist Library. And hence, I guess I am honored and blessed to be given such a row.

This year, the walk is conducted near the Esplanade. The starting point is at the Esplanade and from there, the participants will walk to the Singapore River and then round a hoop back to Esplanade. It is just a 5 click walk.

Except for a morning drizzle, the weather was pretty fine. But frankly speaking, the morning scene at the Singapore River is splendid. Without the usual mingling crowd to content with a cooling river breeze, the place is pretty scenic. Especially when you walk past the stores and they are still closed. It was a pretty good thing to wake up that early and to catch the last of the sun orange hue as it appears from beneath the horizon. Scenic I would say, And perhaps after so much time with people, it is nice to be just appreciate the silent?

Seems like I should be the last guy to talk about appreciating silent because usually I am the noisiest ha-ha… this morning there was no exception. But however, recalling now in my memories it is indeed a sight. How much more beautiful scenery had I missed amidst my endless and nonsensical chatter?

Maybe it is time to keep quiet?

Nothing much to post these few days

2006-06-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

Hack, Is sort of a writer's block?

But guess sh!t happens and it only happens.

I am home alone now again.. My family off to malaysia again and I am the only one at home now. So Just spend my time dazing around haha...

Fun? Not too sure.. But I guess I just love to laze around a bit?

Hack... I will think of something bad to post soon.

Quited My Job for good

2006-06-14T08:37:00.000-07:00

Just a recall...

I told you guys that my job is 5 dollars per hour?

Well... That is b4 CPF.. lolx

So after CPF i am earning abt 4 dollars an hour. Hack. Just quit la...

But i worked 8 days for that company le.. Mitsu Soko....

Well, I is a mistatement, We would be a better statement. I and 2 other guys. We would have quit last week. But in the end we continue... Because one of use did not managed to work for 3 days. So we just work a bit more and earn some more money...

The 2 of them, yuhong and en hui, called cassandra, the agent in the morning to tell them that they want to quit. So Cassandra tell them to tell simon...

In the end, I told simon roughly in the afternoon and tell them to tell simon in the evening.

Well, I am not good at telling stories, so to cut this short, In the evening, We walk towards Simon Office and were discussing how to break the news to him.

Simon came out of the office and before we open our mouth,

He start saying, " Hey, there are 4 more guys coming tomorrow, I need you guys to lead a team each, just go and do the scanning no need to carry heavy loads, just be the team leader ...

blah blah blah...

You all can just rest after taking a pallet or 2 and then just relax 1 corner, that's all you ppl need to do... "

Well, he tried to ask me to stay back, but i sort of spread the word that I was leaving, by telling his staff and such.

In the end, I don really know... Obviously Cassandra must have called him and he know that we are leaving so that why he act like this... But in the end, dispite being a manager, he was at our mercy?

Well... tough job low pay... singaporeans don really like to do all these... I don really blame him that he tried to let us stay. He was quite nice to us all. Agreeing to our demands and such, but in the end. I tihnk the pay was the deciding factor. After working for 8 days, I earn a mess 200 the rest of the money go to my cpf.

I can get a better job out there and some more, my backs still hurts after carrying so much things. But in the end, all 3 of us are not staying back.

There were a few factors..

1) Firstly, 1 of the person who was working with us (a perm staff) was a bit attitube. He was a foreigners and then he show his attitute or wat, say need to clear 20 pallets by 5 pm... And ignore us.

Obviously, these tricks don work on us anymore. Come one, we been through ns, wat else have we not seen?

2) The work sucks? we go home with dirty clothing everyday... And it was heavy loads.

3) we don really want to work? I had a back problem. The other guy was down with flu and somemore the third guy was not that keen on this job.

Well... Maybe i pity simon a bit. But in the end, I don want to earn a messy 32 dollars a day for 8 hours.

Talking Crap... I am good at it? Or is it just a natural instinct

2006-06-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

Just wondering if I am really good at talking crap or not...

Let me recall an incident today...

I and my co-workers were comtemplating to quit the work...

The work is fierce ... carrying lots of heavy loads...

The plus side is that no ones comes and bother us...

Until...

Some Indian from India came... Apparently he is working at a plant and he says that if he works too slow he will sleep.

Lolx..

And so he work.. and he was a very fast worker... There is no wonder that they are fast displacing us... Since we are very good at wayang (drawing goats... lolx)

But with this additional pressure, we were thinking of quiting. Since there is pressure to work now... lol or else, we basically OT OT... but even OT OT is fierce.. we clear abt 10 pallets a day... Today we cleared 15...

Ha ha...
Anyway, I just happened to rambled it to an office clerk while abiding time...

Let me recall a bit of the conversation

Clerk: so are you coming back tomorrow?
Me: Well, don really feel like working.
Clerk: You don want to work already?
Me: Ya, sort of la..., the job very fierce and the environment is hot and stuffy. So thinking of quiting. Maybe I just tell simon(the manger) that I will quit on friday or wat
Clerk: Can la, tomorrow you just come and after work you just tell simon (the manager) that you don want to work
Me: O is that so? No need 3 days notice
Clerk: ya la
Me: haha ... so good ah? haha then i just tell him tomorrow evening lol... depends also ... maybe i cannot even wake up then maybe tomorrow morning I just make a phone call and tell him i don want to work...

Not really the conversation that i had... but it is around there

Have I learnt?

2006-06-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

Apparently Not:

My friend has send me this... and apparently I need to add a NOT in front of the learnt for every sentence.

I've learnt that no matter what happens or how bad it seems today, life does go on and it will be better tomorrow.
I've learnt that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage and tangled Christmas tree lights.
I've learnt that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.
I've learnt that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life.
I've learnt that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I've learnt that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands;
you need to be able to throw some things back.
I've learnt that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I've learnt that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.
I've learnt that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
I've learnt that I still have a lot to learn.
I've learnt that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

ha ha... dude... that me?