The Closing Chapter
Some people are wondering what I am up to.
Frankly speaking, nothing really happens... Except that this incident of mine let me recall a lot of past memories as well. (Zelda: A Link to the Past?)
"It Ends Before It Begins."I guess that's what is happening to me.
Frankly speaking, I am like a grenade with the pin half-out. the pin is half-out. What she did was to accidentally pull the pin all the way out. As you all know, after you pull the pin all the way out, you are supposed to shout
"Grenade" and throw it far far away into the South China Sea.
Then you crouch and say, 1 one thousand, 2 one thousand, 3 one thousand... ...
ok. She did the right thing. except she forgot to shout "Grenade!"
Or else she will be blown into smitters.
But oh well, as the link that I always am, and in the grenade analogy, I am a cluster bomb grenade, with lots of bomblets... Say a Zillions?
Frankly speaking, this is a bad bad case. Failure is the only conclusion. . . I am going to SEP this sem, and there is no way any sound-minded gal would say ok to the way i am doing things. Ok, I can don't go SEP, but i was a tat too serious... But frankly speaking, that's not the real cause...
the real cause is that they thought that I am manipulating her for some other purposes... oh well... I thought I can only see this in TV Soap Opera.
So does that means I qualify for some lead cast?
Ya, perhaps, old habits really dies hard. I can't really blame anyone, no one can guess what i am doing. . . I am erractic and eccentric. No one really knows me, and no one can second guess me. No one can, and no one will be able to... And my actions really also did not, you know, do myself any justice.
Who else can I blame but myself? So I will just accept this and change for the better. That's what ife should be...
know your mistakes and turn over a new leaf.
I heard of one very good line yesterday.
"Be aware of the anger, the resentment, the sorrow................."
Once you know how much it is hurting you, you will let it go.
This is a very good line and it strikes me during yesterday meditation course. I will put the fullstop here again... (3 full stops???!!!!)
I am the wondering wanderer and one day, I will go and wonder again... this is my Destiny??!! I don't know, but this is how i define my purpose of living currently.
Currently I have quite a few projects in hand
UROP, BL Sunday School, BaW. So that should keep me quite busy for a while.
Living Is About What You Achieve.
Regards,
the wondering wanderer. My first post in which I jump all over the place again (Just like in RL)
Frankly speaking, nothing really happens... Except that this incident of mine let me recall a lot of past memories as well. (Zelda: A Link to the Past?)
"It Ends Before It Begins."I guess that's what is happening to me.
Frankly speaking, I am like a grenade with the pin half-out. the pin is half-out. What she did was to accidentally pull the pin all the way out. As you all know, after you pull the pin all the way out, you are supposed to shout
"Grenade" and throw it far far away into the South China Sea.
Then you crouch and say, 1 one thousand, 2 one thousand, 3 one thousand... ...
ok. She did the right thing. except she forgot to shout "Grenade!"
Or else she will be blown into smitters.
But oh well, as the link that I always am, and in the grenade analogy, I am a cluster bomb grenade, with lots of bomblets... Say a Zillions?
Frankly speaking, this is a bad bad case. Failure is the only conclusion. . . I am going to SEP this sem, and there is no way any sound-minded gal would say ok to the way i am doing things. Ok, I can don't go SEP, but i was a tat too serious... But frankly speaking, that's not the real cause...
the real cause is that they thought that I am manipulating her for some other purposes... oh well... I thought I can only see this in TV Soap Opera.
So does that means I qualify for some lead cast?
Ya, perhaps, old habits really dies hard. I can't really blame anyone, no one can guess what i am doing. . . I am erractic and eccentric. No one really knows me, and no one can second guess me. No one can, and no one will be able to... And my actions really also did not, you know, do myself any justice.
Who else can I blame but myself? So I will just accept this and change for the better. That's what ife should be...
know your mistakes and turn over a new leaf.
I heard of one very good line yesterday.
"Be aware of the anger, the resentment, the sorrow................."
Once you know how much it is hurting you, you will let it go.
This is a very good line and it strikes me during yesterday meditation course. I will put the fullstop here again... (3 full stops???!!!!)
I am the wondering wanderer and one day, I will go and wonder again... this is my Destiny??!! I don't know, but this is how i define my purpose of living currently.
Currently I have quite a few projects in hand
UROP, BL Sunday School, BaW. So that should keep me quite busy for a while.
Living Is About What You Achieve.
Regards,
the wondering wanderer. My first post in which I jump all over the place again (Just like in RL)
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