The Wondering Wanderer

Thanks for the memories. Frankly Speaking, I would have never thought it would come to this. Sayonara, thanks for the memories. It is time for me to carry on. Sometimes, I can be a pain in the ass for those that are currently around me. Who cared for me, who are my friends. This is unfair to them. Sayonara. It is time to carry on.

"Those who trust, will be betrayed." "Those who are lazy, will be replaced." "And those who hestitate will be killed." -Shishio

Obviously, there would be ripple effects to take care of. But I have been too successful in handling them. Perhaps I have always been extreme. Extremely Friendly, Extremely Unfriendly... So that's make it tough for those who wish to be... .... I am sorry at times... I realised and it is only when i came home then i realised that. But speaking of that... I too am sort of glad that I am tackling it head on. Cause it is dragging me a lot. The thing is... even if I try to compromise, it would affect me as well... This is a lose lose situation for me. As they say, "Between the devil and the deep blue sea." Frankly speaking, I would never choose the devil if it means that i will jump into the deep blue sea. That is me?

The Story, From My Side. It was the beginning of a new lease of life for me. My secondary school days have just ended, although not in the best possible way. But still suffice for me to enter the school of my dreams…. at that time. Being a 16 years old at that time, I guess I was a bit filled with pride of my achievement. I guess I was arrogant and cocky at times, but other that that, I cannot really find major defects in my behavior. (I am always weird.) But as they say pride always comes before a fall, but never would I know that this is not a fall, but a slam, an endless spiral to the deepest depth of hell. My problems started soon after I enter jc. From my old class, only 4 of us managed to come into the jc of our choice. There was this old classmate, who appealed to get into the jc. I will just call him Z. Anyway I did not need to need to appeal. And at the point of getting my results, he got a lot of Bs, that’s why he needs to appeal. Anyway, at that point of time when we got our...

To All those that managed to read my last post. I thanks all for being an audience to an old hidden secret of mine. Prior to this, I have never talk to anyone about it. I finally realised what I want. I am not interested to know who is right or wrong. I just want to let it go. I just want to carry on. I am tired. Very Tired to be exact. When something becomes a burden, then it is better to let it go. Thanks all, for enabling me to carry on.