An End to 2006
Dear All,
Thank all for viewing my blog. I was just clicking on my blog and I realised this:
Wow, close to 4000 visitor in less than a year. I guess that hit the tops!
As this blog charges on to the next year, I guess I should just talk about it
Purpose of This Blog
Frankly speaking,I started with this blog to talk about my JC time. But I guess it was something hidden in me for a long time, suffocating me but I couldn't talk to anyone else about it.
I was glad that this is finally over. Frankly speaking, I think I need to thank them for well, treating me as just an 'acquaintance' for so long, or else I guess it would have been harder for me to put an end to this.
But the alternative ending would be if they still treat me as a friend and we talk kok and such. But that's life isn't it?
Anyway, that was just my side of the story and I guess I won't judge them more. I still bear a grudge, Especialy to Mr K. You are lucky that I never tell the whole group what happen. But I guess that that would have no point. Seriously, they are closer to you than to me anyway. I just don't wish to see them, Maybe I would just wave to them, talk a little bit. But I guess that's it.
New Friends
I have made new friends. Mr Tree, Mr Cock, Mr Big they all, the group that I was in was even tighter I guess as I feel more comfortable with them than before :P
Anyway, I am glad for their company, they are a bunch of I would say fun and unique person to be with in. I enjoyed their company and I am starting to talk more serious things with them than just talking cock:P haha. Those people that thought they know me only know the talking cock side of me hahaha.
Frankly speaking, if you just made a new friend. You people don't have anything in common, the only think I guess to break the ice is to talk cock. There are people who thought that I am only good at talking cock and they don't take me seriously. But I guess I was just trying to make everyone feel more at ease. But I guess I was wrong:P
Anyway, I am comfortable in their company although I don't know if I can say the same abt me to them. Don't worry, this is not a GAY company.
Ya, I am antigay, so sue me.
Fallen In Love
I have fallen In love in 2006. I will just say that it was a good experience. So you guys should know the ending.
Frankly speaking, matters of the heart cannot be controlled. I finally realised that. But I guess they can be diversified and lightened. So my way of handling it this time round was very bad. But it was a good experience. Now I am alone again.
However, I should stress that I am alone but not lonely.
Alone as in being 1 person, Lonely as in your heart feels empty.
Frankly speaking, I guess I prefer the freedom that comes with being alone.
And the rationality. Frankly speaking, this should be what have happen.
I can only talk to her friends and never to her. So I guess this is the way that it should ends.
Although I must say thanks to those who help me get over it.
Church Outing
I went to a church for christmas. I would like to explain my actions.
I am a stuat buddhist and will always be. Buddhism found me when I was really down and I would not change my religion. In fact, Buddhism is not a religion but rather a teaching. The teaching of the Buddha.
The Buddha is the most democratic of them all. He allows all views to be heard. He does not shut down other views but rather listen to them and argue successfully against wrong views and actions.
The Buddha is the most communist of them all. After attaining enlightenment, he spent the rest of his life propogating the teaching of the Dharmma. Even on saturday and sunday. Every single day.
I like to talk about Buddhism. But before I veered offpoint too much, I would like to say this:
I believe that there are no enemies in this world. Just people who don't understand each other. Just like you see someone else and you dislike the person. However, that very person that you dislike has his own click of friends and people who are comfortable with him. How can you explain that then?
It is just a lack of understanding that leads to conflicts.
Frankly speaking, the current state of events in the world. Especialy with Osama and Bush, I think is a mix of political and personal purposes rather than religion.
However, by flagging the religion banner, both side seeks to justify their actions for their own selfish means. In fact, I have a friend who was living in the states. He was sick of religion.
Which I guess was wrong. That's why I wish to see for myself what Christianity was like.
About Me
I am quite an unorthodox person I should rather say with my own views about things rather than following the trend. I have been, and I guess will always be. But I guess I will learn to be more subtle now.
This is what will happen. The world is changing, so I used my beliefs to guide me along. Unchanging in a changing world.
I guess I would drop my beliefs for now. Not as in really dropping, but not to hold on so tight to them anymore.
Anyway, I would like to say this. It is quite hard for me to make an decision. But once I make a decision, I rarely change them. So I am not as easy going as I might seem to be. The only thing that make me see that I am easy going are my beliefs. Thats might sound contradicting but it is not.
I just stood by my beliefs that I should be friendly to all.
A lot of people I guess, take this as a weaknesses. But as I said before, once I make a decision, I rarely change them. I give it my all. And if I fail I would say, fine, at least I give it my all. I guess that's makes me a bit unsociable as times. But I would just need to learn.
Life has been good to me. I been through a lot and have learnt a lot of things. And they have taught me a lot
Thank all for viewing my blog. I was just clicking on my blog and I realised this:
Wow, close to 4000 visitor in less than a year. I guess that hit the tops!
As this blog charges on to the next year, I guess I should just talk about it
Purpose of This Blog
Frankly speaking,I started with this blog to talk about my JC time. But I guess it was something hidden in me for a long time, suffocating me but I couldn't talk to anyone else about it.
I was glad that this is finally over. Frankly speaking, I think I need to thank them for well, treating me as just an 'acquaintance' for so long, or else I guess it would have been harder for me to put an end to this.
But the alternative ending would be if they still treat me as a friend and we talk kok and such. But that's life isn't it?
Anyway, that was just my side of the story and I guess I won't judge them more. I still bear a grudge, Especialy to Mr K. You are lucky that I never tell the whole group what happen. But I guess that that would have no point. Seriously, they are closer to you than to me anyway. I just don't wish to see them, Maybe I would just wave to them, talk a little bit. But I guess that's it.
New Friends
I have made new friends. Mr Tree, Mr Cock, Mr Big they all, the group that I was in was even tighter I guess as I feel more comfortable with them than before :P
Anyway, I am glad for their company, they are a bunch of I would say fun and unique person to be with in. I enjoyed their company and I am starting to talk more serious things with them than just talking cock:P haha. Those people that thought they know me only know the talking cock side of me hahaha.
Frankly speaking, if you just made a new friend. You people don't have anything in common, the only think I guess to break the ice is to talk cock. There are people who thought that I am only good at talking cock and they don't take me seriously. But I guess I was just trying to make everyone feel more at ease. But I guess I was wrong:P
Anyway, I am comfortable in their company although I don't know if I can say the same abt me to them. Don't worry, this is not a GAY company.
Ya, I am antigay, so sue me.
Fallen In Love
I have fallen In love in 2006. I will just say that it was a good experience. So you guys should know the ending.
Frankly speaking, matters of the heart cannot be controlled. I finally realised that. But I guess they can be diversified and lightened. So my way of handling it this time round was very bad. But it was a good experience. Now I am alone again.
However, I should stress that I am alone but not lonely.
Alone as in being 1 person, Lonely as in your heart feels empty.
Frankly speaking, I guess I prefer the freedom that comes with being alone.
And the rationality. Frankly speaking, this should be what have happen.
I can only talk to her friends and never to her. So I guess this is the way that it should ends.
Although I must say thanks to those who help me get over it.
Church Outing
I went to a church for christmas. I would like to explain my actions.
I am a stuat buddhist and will always be. Buddhism found me when I was really down and I would not change my religion. In fact, Buddhism is not a religion but rather a teaching. The teaching of the Buddha.
The Buddha is the most democratic of them all. He allows all views to be heard. He does not shut down other views but rather listen to them and argue successfully against wrong views and actions.
The Buddha is the most communist of them all. After attaining enlightenment, he spent the rest of his life propogating the teaching of the Dharmma. Even on saturday and sunday. Every single day.
I like to talk about Buddhism. But before I veered offpoint too much, I would like to say this:
I believe that there are no enemies in this world. Just people who don't understand each other. Just like you see someone else and you dislike the person. However, that very person that you dislike has his own click of friends and people who are comfortable with him. How can you explain that then?
It is just a lack of understanding that leads to conflicts.
Frankly speaking, the current state of events in the world. Especialy with Osama and Bush, I think is a mix of political and personal purposes rather than religion.
However, by flagging the religion banner, both side seeks to justify their actions for their own selfish means. In fact, I have a friend who was living in the states. He was sick of religion.
Which I guess was wrong. That's why I wish to see for myself what Christianity was like.
About Me
I am quite an unorthodox person I should rather say with my own views about things rather than following the trend. I have been, and I guess will always be. But I guess I will learn to be more subtle now.
This is what will happen. The world is changing, so I used my beliefs to guide me along. Unchanging in a changing world.
I guess I would drop my beliefs for now. Not as in really dropping, but not to hold on so tight to them anymore.
Anyway, I would like to say this. It is quite hard for me to make an decision. But once I make a decision, I rarely change them. So I am not as easy going as I might seem to be. The only thing that make me see that I am easy going are my beliefs. Thats might sound contradicting but it is not.
I just stood by my beliefs that I should be friendly to all.
A lot of people I guess, take this as a weaknesses. But as I said before, once I make a decision, I rarely change them. I give it my all. And if I fail I would say, fine, at least I give it my all. I guess that's makes me a bit unsociable as times. But I would just need to learn.
Life has been good to me. I been through a lot and have learnt a lot of things. And they have taught me a lot
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